Posted by Cydnie on January 7, 2011, at 14:58:45
In reply to Re: In need of kind, gentle support » Phillipa, posted by Maxime on January 2, 2011, at 15:34:09
Not sure if anyone's still reading this thread, but wanted to come back and post after reading everyone's posts and thank you all. I went into a pretty serious depression, and actually going in-patient sounded kind of good. My psychiatrist had gone away and not left someone in charge of any emergency calls. Also, I had had an appt. on the Monday when I had the scary reaction to the med, and ended up in the ER. Today I went in to see my psy doc, and his secretary was billing me $210, and I asked why and she told me because we didn't call the Friday before to cancel. I told her, the doctor knows I went to the ER though, she told me it was policy. I told her there was no way for me to know on Friday. She told me it didn't matter. I told her I thought it was harsh, that doesn't an actual emergency supersede the policy, she told me no. I thought it was cruel, she told me to take it up with him at my next appt. I told her I didn't know if I would want to come back after that, it seemed harsh, and she told me, Well, there's always that option." I was taken aback, and told her I've never been late/canceled before, never paged him, always been loyal and even referred patients to him and my husband had too (he works at a hospital). She told me, "It doesn't matter, those things don't always work out." I was dismayed, and already so incredibly depressed, and he knows of course my financial situation, and he also knew before he went on vacation that I was in crisis, but never tried to reach me. I had told him I had been suicidal, but he never once acted as though it was a concern. I have never told him that I felt that way before, and wondered why he was acting this way when we met (it seems like he would act this way if I always told him that, which I never had before, but even if I had, even if I was not easy to treat, with treatment resistant depression, I felt he should have either told me, or tried to continue being a doctor.) My husband thinks he wants easy cases, works in a wealthy town, and maybe is trying to eek me out of his practice by doing this. I've been in crisis since I tried to hurt myself on Xmas eve, and now I am without a psy doc, and don't know where to turn. I'm so lost. If I believed in anything, I would think the universe was trying to tell me, give in already, we don't want you. Does anyone else ever feel that way? I feel so desperate and alone!
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