Posted by Phillipa on December 2, 2010, at 10:37:17
In reply to Re: Pharmacist today said my brain damaged no repairin, posted by jeaner on December 2, 2010, at 9:31:01
To all I really didn't expect any supportive posts. I sincerly mean that. Someone mentioned functioning. Well I go through the motions without trying to feel as I have been hurt so many times by both family and elsewhere. My pdoc said eventually we reach a point where the brain can't handle any more and we kind of snap. She said this in reguards to a conversation we had on me asking how and why could I take care of three kids, run a business, go to nursing school and divorce and feel good. She said that eventually you can't and that is what happened to me. See I've had my pup look at me for three years like I'm dying. I have felt the same and it scares me. Often others say take this med or that med or see this doc or that doc and I can't as have no money. Not only that I'm terrified to even pick up the phone and make a phone call. The breaking stone for me with physical stuff was hearing I had osteoporosis and would fall, break a hip and die in a year. Plus then got fired by a doc that wanted me to get reclast infusion cause asked questions about it, then the controversy on bioidenticals. And then benzos now making me tired instead of wanting to increase them I just want to stop everything and go to sleep to avoid controversy well really fighting in real life realationships. I feel no doc can help me. It's me and I've lost who I am. And going to bed at 3 doesn't help just up and already dreading the few hours the sun will be up. I totally depend on my husband as I'm terrified of aloneness and he hates it and me. I better be quiet now and eat breakfast. Sarcastically said " oh joy another meal I can't taste". And seriously not feeling sorry for me sorry for those around me. I need to more not living up to my standards or the ones my family is used to. Thanks for listening. I guess cause I'm blasting me it's okay so won't worry about being blocked. Again anyone with any ideas please write. I'm totally out of them. My head spins should I do this or that or this or that til I can't think at all and am so tired. Love Phillipa
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