Posted by Phillipa on December 1, 2010, at 20:56:40
Today in all seriousness was told by pharmacist that my brain is damaged beyound repair. We were discussing the bioidenticals and he convince me that they are not good for me at age 65. Then we got into my med history all pdoc prescribed. As at age 24 first major painic attack given miltown 400mg and valium 5mg three times a day and told 5 beers or wine a night was fine. For about two years took the miltown then just stopped it no withdrawal continued with valium and drinking as felt great and was high functioning raising three kids running own aerobic business, going to RN school, going through divorce. I was fine. Not until prozac came out was an ad offered to me which I couldn't tolerate after three days ditched. And continue on low dose to me benzos and as different ones came out just switched over to another. Then bam thyroid at menopause and diagnosed with lymes treated with antibiotic for over two years. During this period benzos high and chloral hydrate up to 20cc's Added. I eventually gave up the choral hydrate and didn't drink when on it. Haven't had a drink in over 15 years. Was given most of the ads which didn't work but for first paxil l0mg with lopressor 25mg and benozos and beer. Back to work and two years later stopped the paxil. Almost totally off benzos many times. Now here I sit down to 5mg of valium, .75 xanax and 50mg of luvox and 5mg lexapro when he told me this today. I'm literally sick as feel like death as always inner anxiety I hide, and fear of being alone. So if the brain is damaged at my age is there any hope for me or is this it? Seriously don't know what to do or not do. Benzos just make me tired now but anxiety remains. IF only I'd known. Well don't expect any responses but I typed it out. Phillipa
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