Posted by Maxime on August 10, 2010, at 9:31:33
In reply to Re: FYI, posted by morgan miller on August 9, 2010, at 21:27:14
Thanks everyone for your well wishes. There was no bed available for me last night, but there will be one tonight. I can stay up to one week at the Centre. It was stressful because I had to arrange care for my mum whilst I am gone. Why is everything so hard?
I keep looking at all my pills that are stashed in my drawer and I want to take them all. I know that they would kill me. I will need to keep busy today so that I don't do anything stupid.
On top of the depression and suicidal thoughts, I am sore ALL OVER. It's like I have the flu. I just want to stay in bed. Maybe I will do that. Just stay in bed until it's time to go. I don't know.
I would like to go to bed and never wake up. I wrote my suicide letter to my mom last night and my obituary. That can't be a good sign. :(
I'm scared.
poster:Maxime
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