Posted by Buckeye Fan on January 3, 2010, at 8:00:45
In reply to Re: New Year...New Plan, Advice needed.... » bulldog2, posted by SLS on January 2, 2010, at 11:31:07
> "After more than 12 years of benzo's and anti-depressants, I feel I have lost too much of the real me."
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> I understand this sentiment, and agree that it can occur. However, I would also take into consideration that 12 years is a long time. People can change quite a bit as the decades pass. People evolve. I don't think you would be the same "you" now as you were then, even were you not to have taken psychotropic medication. Even if you have lost elements of your temperament and personality, it may be that these things return relatively quickly with the passage of time. You are in a different place now than you were then. I know it is very tempting to compare now versus then, but perhaps it is a good time to look forward and allow yourself to discover and nurture a new "you" as you proceed.
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> In what ways are you different?
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> - ScottYou are right Scott.
The "old me' does not exist. I have been thinking about this before I read your post. Time marches on...things change...different life experiences occur, and we adapt, grow and "change".
I will try and keep this in mind, and look to discover the "current me",,,WITHOUT the effects of Meds.How was I different before PMeds?
More filled with life and vigor.
More motivated...better able to concentrate. I was able to feel the appropriate emotion at the appropriate time ( good and bad emotions)
And while not always pleasant...at least I knew the feelings were genuine, and not being interfered with by the tranquilizing effects of Meds.
Mostly what I miss though....is the thrill of life, a zest for living and accomplishing. My once fast paced, high energy personality has been replaced with a withdrawn, cautious "safe" styling of living that refusue to take normal risks...interact socially with others properly..and ..well ...get EXCITED about anything? Does that make sense?BF
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