Posted by Meltingpot on November 23, 2009, at 15:56:58
In reply to Re: Why do I feel suicidal? » Meltingpot, posted by SLS on November 19, 2009, at 17:09:20
Scott,
Thanks for answering my question, of course nobody can really answer that question but me. I think I just wonder if I'm not as good as coping with feeling depressed as other people. I did see a very good therapist who was lovely but it didn't really help me in the long run but she was supportive. Unfortunately I had to wait 2 years to see her on the wonderful UK NHS and then once you've had a course that's it, you don't get a second chance.
The reason I often feel suicidal is that it is a source of comfort to me especially when I'm at my lowest. The idea that I might just cease to be conscious really seems appealing at times as I know it does to other people.
However, I'm never in a state where I lose all sense of reason and don't know what I'm doing. Also I'm not impulsive by nature so I tend to think of all of the rammifications of taking an overdose, what if I don't do it properly, what if I just end up brain damaged and even worst, still depressed.
Having said that all I really want is to feel better and enjoy life again and taking an overdose isnt' really congusive to that. Sometimes I think though that it just istn't going to happen so then we get back to suicide again.
Ok, well thanks for taking the trouble to respond anyway.
Denise
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