Posted by Meltingpot on November 12, 2009, at 14:59:46
In reply to Re: At what point should they give up trying??? » meltingpot, posted by delna on November 12, 2009, at 2:58:26
Also I think the NHS Mental Health Services might have targets to meet and if they can get me off their books it will be one less person for them to worry about.
Really, I can't just blame them, I mean it's not their fault that the medication isn't working properly, they have tried but that one last NHS Psychiatrist I saw just seemed to be totally cold and didn't give me any encouragement at all. He just looked at me after I'd told him how bad I'd been feeling and didn't show any emotion at all and like you say then they just leave you in limbo.
The private psychiatrist at The Priory least gave me some hope but maybe she is just giving me hope of getting better because I'm paying her too. Having said that I did ask her that very question and she told me she wasn't. She is a very good psychiatrist and does specialise in psychopharmacy so I know she knows her stuff. I used to have private insurance when I had a good job but lost that when I lost my job (through the depression but that's another story)
She went along with my plan to come off medication because I had already stopped it. I don't think she thought it was a very good idea though. Mentally I haven't been too bad I just feel physically wretched.
I've never suffeered a complete breakdown and I've never had psychotic depression which I know is awful. I've been told (and I know) that I suffer with dysthymia and anxiety which sometimes gets worse so I'm not as bad as some people out there who can't even function. I feel guilty moaning about my plight really and I keep thinking one day God is going to look down on me and say "Suffering? You think you are suffering? I'll show you what real suffering is like?
I've written to a number of top people here in the UK asking them for advice, including Professor Nutt, a couple of years ag:-) Not sure if you have heard of him. A Dr Geddes (who wrote an article on ECT) at Cambridge just suggested I try CBT which I have now tried and It didn't work.
I will keep you updated and I might end up asking you for the name of a good psychiatrist in London if all else fails :-)