Posted by yxibow on March 3, 2009, at 23:30:25
In reply to Re: What would you trade for remission of depression? » SLS, posted by Phillipa on March 3, 2009, at 10:46:18
> Scott for me don't think it's side effects. When someone asks me what I want my reply is to be who I was. That's a happy productive person. Just a simple life that is enjoyable. Phillipa
And I'd also say I'd like to be who I was. But since we can't go back in time and we live in the here and now, the best success is constructing a new, happy, and productive person who through medication and therapy has learned to overcome their... grmm... its a clinical term "limitations"... that is, whatever may not be able to be controlled completely, because nothing is perfect.
Its one I wrestle with all the time. But mine is a complex set of things that has evolved and changed over the past seven years.I've already traded side effects for improvement at times -- there are neurological things that have occurred, things that couldn't have been predicted but are things I just don't recognize as the real me.
Its really a genie in the bottle question, and a fantasy -- a "phantasy"... because of course there are numerous things people would trade to be "normal". But nobody and I mean nobody out there is 'normal', whatever that is supposed to mean. If people somehow appear to be peachy, there's assuredly something in their life that bothers or hinders them in some way.
There's really no end of thoughts of what I would trade to not have an orphan disorder -- and I'm sure they'd be pretty hideous thoughts like a partially missing finger with a prosthetic or, I don't know... this is getting way off topic, but it does show that yes, I am desperate to be free from myself, I guess.It opens up Pandora's box.
So I can't say because things have already been traded by a twist of biochemicals and science and nature.
-- just a take on things
-- Jay
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