Posted by JadeKelly on February 21, 2009, at 22:11:37
In reply to Re: Hurting real bad - suicidal, long » HyperFocus, posted by Neal on February 21, 2009, at 20:42:29
Hi Hyperfocus,
First I want to say that the posters before me are telling you the truth. PLEASE pay attention to Scott's words to you. He went through hell for some 25 years. I've not gone into details regarding his childhood, but he has suffered many years with hellish depression and just kept going. He recently found a treatment plan that has put him in remission and we are all so grateful. The funny thing is, he's the one EVERY ONE goes to for advice on this board. These people became my only friends. I'm like you, I can do just fine alone but I think that is part of the depression that fools you. If treated right, you could be well soon. We like to tell ourselves what I'm feeling is the reality, IT ISNT. Please believe me.
Do you have family? Anyone who cares about you? I'm sure you do. I haven't talked about my personal reasons for needing to be here, but please mail me. We have some things in common that I think will help with perspective. Suffice it to say, again, not to guilt you out (okay, maybe a little) If you were to do somthing that final, you will change people. Permanently.
Finally, you sound like you think you did something wrong. You've done nothing but good things. I am sorry you had to be the target of bullies. That is a huge issues in the schools right now. Its damaging and they are finally seeing its NOT OK. My son was bullied in middle school and as his mother of course I wanted to hurt someone to make it stop but I couldn't. Then one day, he walked into the bathroom and two bullies were pushing a handi-cap boy into the wall so he pee on himself. Well my son helped the kid up, befriended him, and was willing to tell which is a big no-no. You remind me very much of him.
But you are GOOD they are nothing. Really read your own post to us and please highlite all the great things about yourself! Then the "others". You are still here, your biologically depressed, and are not seeing things clearly, so time to get workin on that and then take another look. You don't seem like a quitter or you wouldn't have posted us.
I was in bed for a year. I was deeply depressed for 2 years. The deepest darkest hole. I had no clue how I would survive when I could barely get out of my own bed. Seeing anyone was out of the question. NOW, I'm on the right antidepressant.
I'm actually almost back to who I was. I'm in therapy. I can say that most of the time I'm happy. I'm so glad I had faith. Please have faith too. You could have a wonderful life if you get out of the depression your in. Its not your fault. Your chemistry changes. Get that taken care of then have another look. talk here everyday if you need to. Thats what kept me going. Honestly? They saved me. They helped me with all sorts of things.Okay. Well too long. Just do nothing for now except think about how you will get out of the depression you are in. Therapy works a whole lot better when your on the right meds. But it will work now to head you in that direction. If your not in therapy, please make an emergency appt.
This is NOT how your life ends. BELIEVE ME ;-)
Sorry so long....bathroom reading? babblemail me anytime or email me eljakelly@verizon.net
Hope to get to know you better! ~Jade
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