Posted by Cseagraves on February 9, 2009, at 11:50:43
Hello to all.
O.K. - here's whats been going on so far.
Started Marplan last Thursday at 10 mg.
1st day - not so bad, started feeling nauseous in the afternoon, mild headache and a little jittery.
2nd day - same thing nauseous, a little more jittery in afternoon, but headache had gotten worse.
3rd day - extreme nauseous to the point of throwing up, feeling of tremendous knot in stomach, no appetite what so ever. Jitteryness has turned to anxiety which is leading into depression.
4th day (yesterday)- nauseau and vomiting and diarrhea. Shaking all over. Agoraphobia and anxiety has hit an all time high. Didn't want to eat or move at all yesterday. (Actually wanted to just die. Have never felt like life wasn't worth living anymore.) I don't mean like commit suicide, but would have just been happy to die. I even called the suicide hot-line, which I have never done before.
I'm not understanding why my body seems to have such awful reactions to all meds. Have now been through most ssris, tca's, tried seroquel at one point which was an awful experience. And now I have tried an maoi.
Did anyone else have such an experience going on an maoi? Am wanting to call pdoc, but don't want to sound like a big baby. Was scared to take dosage today and I am supposed to move up to 20 mgs on Thursday.
The only thing that seems to give me any few hours of calmness is zanax. (.5) and I take 1.0 for sleep at night along with some melatonin.
Have dropped 5 lbs. since Thursday and the thought of food right now is repulsive. I have been forcing down protein shakes and trying to eat some food.
What's wrong with me? Is it maybe I just don't need these meds? It almost seems like taking them over a period of time has made me worse. Was thinking, if I can handle it, just maybe easing off of everything (with pdocs help) and learning to cope with the anxiety and agoraphobia issues without relying on meds. ( I know that I can handle zanax and remeron at low dosages).
Feel so lost and don't know what to do. After only being on the Marplan for 4 days, would it be o.k. just to stop it. How much worse could the side effects possibly be?
Please advice. I feel like I'm losing it.
Thanks,
Courtney
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