Posted by Vincent_QC on February 6, 2009, at 10:20:36
In reply to Re: Quitting Parnate » Vincent_QC, posted by Phillipa on February 5, 2009, at 19:42:03
> Vincent so sorry it didn't work for you second time round. Sure hope that pdoc can get the EMSAM for you. I betting it would help. Love Phillipa
Well, for now at only 30mg/day of Nardil it's certainly not helping me a lot...For the headache, they stop a little bit, at least this is ok...more present in the evening and I have always this strange sensation inside my head, the same I have when I Try to stop a benzo drug...like someone who play with my brain and push it with his 2 hands...that's really weird...
On my first try on the Nardil in 2007, I go directly at day one to 45mg and increase fast (2 weeks) to 75mg...and I stay there for more than 2 3/4 month...and it was helping a little bit, at least for my benzo intake, I was used less of them but like I write last week, I also remember now that it didn't help me a lot with social phobia...maybe a little bit for depression, but not for the social phobia, the motivation and the energy level, I always had a cup of coffee in my hand, that's what I remember now.
So for now, I take my 30mg at bedtime because it's more sedative for me...BTW the Seroquel begin to be less effective as a sleep aid, i'm at 50mg of regular seroquel, I will ask for 75mg I think...
For the CBT, I talk a lot with my Psychologist yesterday, not being stable on a AD his not helping me for sure but she have a lot of doubts about the possibilities that I found a good drug to help me, at least in the months to come (not very positive)... so she don't see why it will be necessary to stop the CBT and wait that the good AD kick in...since it can take a lot of time before I find it...so I will have to continue my CBT...but I can't really pratice my exposure time in social events, especially when my daytime consist of drinking coffee, surfing a little bit on the internet and return in my bed cause I feel tired. I have to kick my *ss really harder at the supper time to take a shower, get dress and go out at night with my best friend, it's the only activity I do, with someone it's ok...I mean I don't feel comfortable in social situations, but it's easier to be exposed in a social situation with someone...alone that's another thing...but to be able to do this daily activity, It take all the energy I have, just the shower and get dress make me feel like I just do 4 hours of running...
I have a lot of things in my minds also for now, I have to stop smooking cause I begin to have some respiratory problems, I have to loose more than 50 pounds that I gain on the Lexapro (Cipralex) last fall so another strict diet to come, I have some blood test to do (T3, T4, iron level and others importants things like these), X-ray of my lungs but I have my papers but I can't find the courage to call ( I don't like the phone and talk to strangers), I need to begin to exercise at the gym cause since I move back to my parents house, I don't do anything, before even in my worst moments, I had to go outside and walk more than 1 h a day...it was helping me a lot to stay in shape, now that I don't have to walk I can see the difference, i'm really not in a good shape...
Maybe I put to much pressure on me also, maybe i'm not helping me by always thinking about all of this..but I can't stop, thanks to my general anxiety side...
Anyway for the Emsam patch, I know it's probably the better solution for me, but I can't find them in the Canada, even if it's approved by health Canada, and it's too much expensive for me. The best things to do will maybe to find someone who will want to sell to me some patchs, just to try them (by mail...), if I feel ok after one week, that's mean that I will be able to do the treatment, since I always feel the side-effects of a drug really fast...but who will be able to do this for me??? I don'T know...
I have to think about the possibilities to take oral Selegiline...but for this I have to find the good level (MG) of it to take orally, the good dosage who will make the inhibition of the MAO-B and MAO-A at 100%...but nobody here seem to know the dosage of oral Selegiline I need for this...
Anyway, too much in my minds for now... I continue to think that's it's not ok for a normal person like me to know more than my PDoc about drugs to help me and also all the process about the importation in the Canada... I think the public system in the Canada make the medical care not very good...I just turn around since more than 2 years soon...nothing improve, in fact my state decrease a lot...i'm stuck with PDoc who want to treat me with always the same drugs, they never have new ideas or at least a good combo to offer...they always fear about something, they never want to take any chance...I'm always the one who ask to try things...and that's not normal...
Anyway...sorry for the laments...i'm just tired of everything I think...i'm still not very depress, I mean that I just lack the energy, the motivation and the emotionnal side to make my life more enjoyable for now...I just want everything to be more easier but that's seem to be impossible...well I write too much another time...I always forget that everything here can be google...I hate that...
Have a nice weekend Phillipa!
Take care of you ok!
Bye!
Vincent ;-)
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