Posted by Vincent_QC on January 16, 2009, at 14:06:23
In reply to Re: SCOTT » Vincent_QC, posted by JadeKelly on January 13, 2009, at 12:42:19
> Hi Vincent,
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> It means I got a please be civil and a please be sensitive. They give you those when they feel or the person reports you that you have not respected them in some way. Doesn't take much so if you haven't read the civility guidelines you might want to. When I said slapped I just meant I got scolded. Like getting slapped on the back of the hand.
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> I'm gonna answer your other post too, I think there is one!
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> ~JadeHi Jade ;-)
You mean read all the FAQ...Forget this...i'm not in the mood to read a lot of text like this...the day I will be slapped I will enjoy it! hahaha Ouppss...it was a joke here... Anyway, I don't need to read the "be civil" section since i'm not here to lack respect to someone else or to argue and fight with others members...I'm just here to find some help, help the others with all my informations and my experiences in the "Drugs" treatments options and things like that...IF someone don'T like my kind of "black humour" and my sarcastic side that characterizes me, that's not my problem... ;-)Hope you are ok this week...we don't talk a lot...Did the Parnate kick again? I hope...what happen now, how do you feel?
I had my first true day of individual therapy (CBT) this morning and I was exhausted at the end. My psychologist wanted that we go to the cafeteria of the hospital, just to take some note about my level of anxiety before we go, my thoughts, my anxiety level after the exercice...things like that...
I don't like the fact that I begin this therapy and that I have to deal with the fact that my Parnate experience fail and that i'm not stable under an AD... I have some exercices to do as homework...I have to go to the shopping center each day alone, to expose myself more and more and get used of my anxiety...
I don't know if I will be able to do this...Since I stop the Parnate, I have a regain of anxiety feeling, sometimes I need to take more Valium than the 20mg I usually need, I feel weird...my motivation and concentration level is near the 0 level and my migraines restart the day after I stop the Parnate...So I feel like I lose another month of my time...That's not very easy to deal with all of this at the same time...
I try to explain this to my psychologist this morning...I'm not very happy of the situation because the Parnate had a GOOD effect on my social anxiety and my anxiety in general...but all the side effects with the Parnate was not tolerable for me. I mean, why they canno't invent a good drug with a good effect on the social phobia and anxiety like the effect of the Parnate but without the side-effects...??? It's seem that the more they launched new drugs with fewer side-effects, the less they work...
Anyway, I have so much questions to ask to my Pdoc next week, i'm afraid of his reactions about the fact that I stop the Parnate, i'm afraid about the other options he will give to me...i'm not feeling enough strong to fight and argue with him, so if he decide to put me on something I already try before, I will have no choice really...what I can do? ...since I can't choose myself a Pdoc in the Canada cause the public health system we had don't give us the choice, I can't do anything else...That's suck...
I'm wondering if I will just TRY to ask to something to give me more energy like Adderall-XR or Provigil, just to have more energy at daytime and to be able to do something of my life...regain some energy, some motivation and concentration...find a work...be someone again..."live and not just exist"...like I always say....
For now, all I do is to stay at home at daytime, lying in my bed often...trying to keep all the small amount of energy I have to be able to go out of the home in the evening for the regular coffee with my best friend or things like that...
I feel really tired to be tired...and I can't point out what is the cause of this lack of energy and all the fatigue I have. Is it caused by the "depression", by my anemia or just because i'm used to live like this since more than one year...??? Anyway...so much questions, so much thoughts, no wonder why i'm anxious like this!!! lol
Well that was my complaints for the week...We talk more later if you want ;-)
Take care of you ok !!!
Bye!
Vincent ;-)
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