Posted by JadeKelly on December 16, 2008, at 18:47:18
In reply to I leave a place running, posted by tepi on December 15, 2008, at 22:31:09
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> Okkk , I started today the Modafinil
> (together with NArdil and Xanax)
> Las friday I told a girl (while drunk) that If she wanted to be my girlfriend , I like her
> She was gonna tell me later I think, and I try to go out with her today. We went to some salsa classes ( dancing clases ) and I had a realyy bad time . What is wrong with mee
> Im so worried about everything that is my life is not life ! . I just looked at her face how boried she was ( my mind was telling me that of course , maybe it was true maye dont , but what the hell ! ) . I was so quiet that other men started to talk with her , I felt like an idiot and I had to leave the place , I left her. I went to an store and I bougth 2 beers to feel better. I drank them and them I return . I was feeling better and I was not so worried about anything .
> I still have the effects of the alcohol , I love them ! but I know ALCOHOL is not the exit , well that`s what wveybody says.
> I invited her to go out next wednesday but I man had invited her in front of me to another first
> She said she can go with me because of that
> Anyway , Im not gonna remind her about my question of being my girl
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> ok what is wrong with me ! .
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> I only took 100mg of Modafinil in the morning
> but I did not feel ANYTHING !! . I thougth it had a fast effect like benzos
> Im not waiting that this med fix my life , but I have some kind of hope that I can improve a little bit . Ok maybe I need more time and dose rigth
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> Tell me something. Everything may sound so easy to handle but you cant imagine how painful this is
> for me. its amazing how so simple things can destroy a life
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Hi Tepi,(nice to finally meet you by the way) Since I don't know you, I'm in the unique position to tell you what I see from the outside. Not knowing your diagnosis, other than what I can gather in a paragraph, I can only base my picture on that.
Oh, first, I hate provigil. I don't suffer from anxiety, it made me an anxious wreck. Two, unless your an alcoholic, people drink, often to have the nerve to meet people of the opposite sex, don't be too hard on yourself. Just don't make a habit of it. A couple, yeah, girls don't tend to like sloppy drunk guys. So you were brave enough to ask her to be your girlfriend, you were brave enough to ask her out, you were brave enough (my God) to take her salsa dancing (I would need a couple of beers for that also, next time drink em before salsa class!) I'm not sure about the next part but it sounds like she said she would go out again, even tho you left her? Not sure. You left her so that coulda gone either way. (Remember, 2 beers before, not during)
So, you obviously challenge yourself, even tho it sounds like torture for you (your brave) you just need to get your meds right, I know, so easy. I would find some reliable advice re: Provigil and take it when not on a date, or find a different medication. If you're on Nardil, and you have to go too high on Provigil, see if you can find another stim type med., small dose ritalin I find to be perfect (not a mind racer) but you would have to stay low or it would be dangerous.
Good Luck!
~Jade
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