Posted by that_guy23 on December 2, 2008, at 19:42:22
In reply to Re:BEST NARDIL AUGMENTATION? » desolationrower, posted by that_guy23 on December 1, 2008, at 18:48:17
1) worry excessively what people think of me
2)try not too seem anxious but seems to make it worse
3)blush sumtimes when somone puts me in center of attention, or when I'm in the middle of a sentence
4)racing heart entering social interactions
5)feel as someone will point out i'm nervous
6)become very quite and nervous when around people I don't know
7)fear the worst is that people would know I feel this way
8)Total frustration knowing that I shoudn't feel this way, but with allot of battling myself turned to failure.
1)obviously after a social situiation I feel very down and hate myself for it
2)low self esteem and confidence(could be the SA)
3)wnating to sleep more
4)able to just sleep longer
5)feelings of guilt from my past and just any little thing.
6)not caring about the things I used to(on days don't even feel like playing guitar!!that is a bad day for me!!)
7)suicidal thoughts brought on by inner pain that I try to fight on my own, but meds are my answer!
8)feeling blank and just nothing feels right.
1) I would guess that it's just the worrying when I'm not in social sitiation, about my future, my failing, how i gotta change it. how I gotta get better.
I have used alcohol to self medicate, so thats why I think that the SA/depression needs to be dealt with first, not vice versa.
thanks for any help.
hope to hear from you soon.