Posted by stargazer2 on November 22, 2008, at 16:12:48
In reply to Re: ALWAYS MORE CONFUSED HERE » stargazer2, posted by clipper40 on November 21, 2008, at 7:28:51
I wrote a big long explanation of my attempts to get things on track. It explained everything (I doubt it) but I thought it would help others see what I had to do to figure things out with or without the help of experts. When I went to send it last night, it disappeared and was never to be found.
The simple answer to your question is Nardil with a touch of a stimulant.
The complicated version which tells the med trials and years of being house bound and suicidal is the much more complicated version, but I guess that is better left for me to understand, rather than relive it by explaining it to others.
Perhaps the moral of the story is that relatively easily remedied situations are not always seen for what they are. Sometimes the answers are right in front of us, but not in front of our doctors.
Too bad I wasn't able to prescribe for myself because I always felt my depression had a large component of ADD and my doc refused to go down that path. I'm still not sure why, but it cost me years of lost productivity and missing out on much of life for 20+ years. I had some normal times in the period but there was an overwhelming sense that something was not right in my brain.
I was getting ready to check out if my own attempts to find an answer did not pan out.
I'm so normal now its scarey. The meds turned me into a debilitated person and it makes me sick thinking if it happened to me, it is happening to millions of others.
That is Psychiatry in the 20th century. Frightening to see how far off the target things has gotten. Obviously, the target was never in my doctor's sight.
INHO, the increase in the number of meds being used for all kinds of conditions has made the treatment much harder since there are potentially so many combinations of meds that can be tried. That is where so much time was lost since every trial can take a few months. I totally gave up on continuing to test meds and told my doc that and then tried my own experiment and added a stim to Nardil and thought it did something.
We may try me just on some ADD meds in the future but I didn't want to risk unraveling since I am doing so well at my job right now. It would be quite risky to prove my theory that perhaps ADD was the basis of my depression, by quitting Nardil, at least for right now. That may be another phase in my treatment once I have gone for at leat a year without any relapse of my depression.
Hope this sheds some light on my story and believe me, this is the abbreviated version. My diary is 2 volumes and I only write when things are very bad.
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