Posted by Questionmark on November 9, 2008, at 22:42:28
In reply to Re: I better leave before I mess up the study, posted by SLS on November 9, 2008, at 16:33:44
I question whether i should post this or not, but, i'm feeling compelled... or, wanting to, or, something/ whatever. Anyway...
This was a good post and encouraging, and I don't mean to take away from that. But I think that when some people are deeply depressed enough, as with myself, their thinking is that it doesn't matter if they are not "certain that nothing would ever work." It can seem unlikely enough that it makes it feel not-worthwhile to hope, and it at the very least *feels* like hope is illogical. Also, even if something Could work it can feel like it doesn't even matter anyway as nothing will give you back all the lost years and months and days. ... That part might not be logical, as it might be more logical to try to make the best of your present and the rest of your life regardless of the past, but, sometimes what you feel cannot override what you might know to be logical.
I am not really feeling these things right now, but I certainly have many times.I'm sorry. I'm not sure why I wrote this. And it's getting less relevant to the subject of the thread, so i'm sorry for that too. But i felt i needed to (?). Or maybe i just wanted to.
> > ...when others go into remission and they have failed to do so.
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> It brings tears to my eyes to think of the people who have not YET been treated adequately when I have been. Survivor's guilt. Sometimes, I feel as if I have left people behind. I can't help but to want to share my success story with people in the hope that it will give them Hope. It is one of the main reasons that I have not disappeared from this forum. Another reason is to keep current on the new drugs that people are experimenting with.
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> I never lost hope, even when I was suicidal. It was logical to have hope. I had not yet run out of things to try. If I could conceive of a drug or drug combination not yet tried, there always lied the uncertainty that something might work. In other words, I was never absolutely certain that nothing would ever work. Such a conclusion would be illogical.
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> Have hope. It is logical.
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> - Scott
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