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Game Time, rj v.s Racer....let the games begin!

Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 8, 2008, at 22:56:30

Sorry, but there are several things in this I want to comment on:

>> Dextroamphetamine increases my mathematical skills,

No, your math skills were there, and are as good or bad off meds as on -- perhaps you are better able to concentrate on math, but the drug can't magically increase your skills. Your math skills are as good or as bad as they are, because YOU WORKED TO LEARN THEM. I think it's important to take credit for what we've accomplished, rather than giving credit away. I got very good grades in algebra, for instance -- yes, I had good teachers, but you know what? I got very good grades because I worked very hard to get them. (And, of course, because I happened to love algebra. Too bad I didn't love calculus, huh?)

>>because i've concluded low doses stimulate only to a certain extent of the brain, D2, not D3.

What are you basing this conclusion on?

Speaking of Ritalin, you wrote:
>>it suppressed emotions and just caused focus, it didnt really have the stimulation amphetamine does.

I've said before, and I will say again here -- in setting my doses for stimulants, the main criteria is that I -- and others around me -- are aware of the benefit, but I do *not* feel stimulation. If I am feeling stimulation, I know that my dose is too high.

>>constant admistration of Amphetamine can cause dopamine and serotonin degrugulation.

I am assuming you mean "dysregulation," and that's correct. In fact, that's one of the warnings my doctor has given me -- he's concerned that at some point, if my catecholamines become too depleted from the stimulants and other meds I'm on, I might get his with the mother of all depressive episodes. It's a valid concern, although any medication requires a pretty complex risk/benefit analysis.


And finally:

>>I believe i have more d2 receptors, because any dose, even 40mg staight itself, causes "mind stimualtion" but not "get up and do stuff" i can lay in bed and think about things of life, i've fallen asleep on amphetamine many times before.

I'm not sure how one would come to this conclusion. The "get up and do stuff" is behavioral, not biochemical. If you're lying in bed, thinking about "things of life," then you've chosen a behavior.

Just for the record, I only respond to your posts because I am concerned about you. I have seen a lot of change in you over the years -- much of it for the better. (In fact, I was thinking of you this evening in my car -- the CD I was playing has a song on it called "I'm Your No. 1 Fan." I looked for it on YouTube for you. No joy.) I worry that you think I'm criticizing you, rather than expressing well-meant, even affectionate, concern for you.

I can't remember -- have you ever seen a psychologist?

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Alright well, hello folks, this is rj, i want to say. Yes i have had other screennames, i'll list them your#1fan (i got from the movie MISERY, hinting i wanted to be liked, and i lived with some very similar to that movie who said "Paul, I'm your #1 fan" does this scene remind you of someone?
Disclaimer: these past memories, caused trama, (not the danm movie, just living with my mother my whole life!) And i'm making a statement to you Racer, do you not rerember all my "trama" posts? well, i got over it, but developed a some personality aspect's because NO ONE understood what happened. I've already expienced this emotionally, and it was horrid. This is moral obligation if this clip is over the top, but its what abuse i went through
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i5OlolbLXvw

That's the "irony" of the screenname, it had 2 meanings, i wanted to be loved, i cant be loved, i was abused during the times that everyone ignored my posts.

First of all about medication, i'm going to defend myself harsh, i dont care if 20 people make attacks, i'm ready.

Dextroamphetamine seems to be not liked on this site, and patitucally by alot of people. Do you know why? because even if i took Secobarbital, i would be critized. It's in that class of "abuse" expet, you abuse Seconal, your heart will rest in peace.
Now, to address the mathematical skills, what your telling me Racer, is that "you can do it, without it", I can function....but my work is so declines because of frequent mistakes, that i miss over and over. Dextroamphetamine increases repeative behavior, which in turn, if you do math over and over....you correct the errors. It also makes you not notice that you do tedious tasks, such as doing 200-500 mailers in 4 hours. Getting distracted, ofbalance, breaking things, losing time, do you know what trama everyday life is? and dont anyone say "PITY ON YOU" because that represents who you are, and what your logical opinion is. Enough.

can ask you something? Could you do it with out your Concerta? think about it, and..

Your Wellbutrin, let's say.....you where just pulled off it? and told "You can deal with life, you just got to work on it". Get the picture?

So, i'm not angry, i'm irriated that people dont understand some aspects of me, and accuse me of everything, that's why i stay the hell away from family. There idiots who care, exept my brother.

Now....
do you rerember this posting i posted? the wicked confused person i was dealing with at the time, and people just made jokes about it? well, Hello AMERICA? i have 2 other people inside my danm head. And believe me, it's because i split because of trama, with harrassment, rages, horrifying memories, blamegames, no, i dont put up with any of that bullcrap anymore. Having more than one brain, is better.
Let's go back....and look....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EjRaU8hRVJs

what would you say....to a person who had endure this, and no one heard their cries?

Now, the intentions of this post, is, do not look down on me. I've had so much pain, that when someone cries all they can, your spirit cares for you, and your mind cares for you, and in turn it created a "support" system which, if i was going to have a breakdown, i switch.

I hope this is put down and understood. But, i do not want to argue at all. I just have had it....i've blown up so hard, my voice can be heard 4 houses down the street yelling at an idiot who says "why are yelling, your hurting my ears?"

Now with this evidence put in this post, if you do not understand it, read it over.

This was not intended to hurt, or offend anyone, but it was a strong statement "stop" putting me down.

Thank you.....

rj


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