Posted by satsumas on May 1, 2008, at 21:20:33
In reply to Re: Emsam switching to Effexor question NEED HELP! » satsumas, posted by Phillipa on May 1, 2008, at 21:07:46
I guess i want to do the minimum required. And 37.5 is a small dose of effexor anyway. I'm willing to take a reasonable risk to get my blood levels of effexor up ASAP. Doctor also prescribed 150mg of lithium which i've started on right away.
Every single day its been suicidal thoughts, for 3.5 weeks. It takes all my power just to push them out and try to concentrate on something else, but the spirit and concentration is so weak too. Just read the Bible and pray to God and not think about how "off track" i am from my peers.
Hardest part is looking in the mirror and seeing wasting potential and having to hide this illness from peers. Already quit my job in January because it wasn't the right job for me and I was so unhappy for so long, but it's tough to start looking for a new one especially since I was already at the "top of the top" in terms of companies...feeling sorry for myself doesn't help I know and turns single depression to double depression to triple depression...so i will stop.
But it just hurts on so many levels.
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