Posted by 4WD on February 20, 2008, at 18:52:09
In reply to help!?, posted by liliths on February 3, 2008, at 11:45:19
Hi, Liliths,
First of all, you have my deepest sympathy. I can so totally identify with you. It's an effort to even get dressed, let alone leave the house and go run errands or go to the gym or meet someone for coffee or do any of those things "people" suggest as a remedy for when we don't feel like doing anything.
I'm not quite in as bad a shape as you but I've had the same thoughts about wishing I'd get cancer or something to put me out of my misery. I'm scared to try and commit suicide, I'd probably just make myself really sick. There's no good, clean sure way to do it. And I really don't want to do it. I don't think you do either or you wouldn't be posting here for help.I have one suggestion. My therapist suggested this to me and it has really really helped, as hard as it is to make myself do it. Every morning after I have had my coffee, I make myself go for a walk. He suggested I start out with a ten minute walk and work up. So I tried it. It was pretty striking how different I felt after I got back. It gets your endorphins to kick in or something. And it gets you our of the house and it gives you a feeling of accomplishment. I treat myself to a reward when I get back - I promise myself a reward to motivate myself to go. My reward is a couple of glasses of diet Mt. Dew and a couple of cigarettes.
I've worked up to about a mile or a mile and a half a day. I've been doing this for a couple of months now and it still helps. The improved mood doesn't last more than a couple of hours but at least that's two hours I'm not miserable.
Maybe you promise yourself to try it one time. After all, what's ten minutes? Surely you can do ten minutes of something you don't really want to do.
Keep posting here. We all care about you.
Marsha
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