Posted by deniseuk190466 on February 6, 2008, at 15:47:06
In reply to Re: tecknohed » deniseuk190466, posted by tecknohed on January 21, 2008, at 19:42:55
I've just seen your response to me and just want to say thanks for trying to suggest something even if I'm too low really to think anything will ever bring about a true remission.
I've been off all meds now since late December because I keep toying with the idea of participating in a Ketamine trial in the States. To participate in the trial you have to be off medication for at least two weeks. As I'm off it I think I should perhaps just stay off it until I go on the trial but then again I don't even know if I'm going to go on the trial. I don't know what I'm doing.
All I know is that I just feel continually low every day without medication and I am trying herbal supplements, thyanine, folic acid, taurine, valarian, Rhodiala Rhosea and others but they are not helping. I'm also having Therapy which doesn't seem to be helping either.
Every day I feel as though I wish I were dead.
I know I need to get back on medication but then I'm not sure about whether to go on this Ketamine trial, I'm not sure about anything apart from the fact that I'd just love to lie down and never ever wake up.
I haven't tried HRT although I went to see a specialist who prescribed oestrogen patches. I never used them but I have them in my drawer and I think I'll try them tonight.
I just want total remission from this depression. Antidepressants and Zyprexa now and again does help but they just don't work the same as they used to.
Sorry, started rambling again, thanks again for being kind enough to make suggestions.