Posted by johnj on January 6, 2008, at 1:02:17
I am at the end of my rope. One night on Depakote, slept well. Second night nothing. I feel like I will lose my wife, job and everything I know. Where will I go? Will I be homeless? the world seems to have no place for us.
My body seems to fight the meds. I guess it is telling me I need to be by myself. My poor wife, I love her but she doesn't understand what is going on and neither do I. I guess I don't like my job either. Does it mean if I was satisfied with life I wouldn't have the anxiety? I guess it is all in my head but I don't have a clue on how to figure it out. Maybe I am bored with life and can't figure out what I want or need. In the mean time I will probably lose it all. Then what do I do? Just wait until my body just gives out as meds are not working. I pray that god will just take me. I am not suicidal as I don't want to go to hell. My diagnosis is not even clear anymore. I just can't sleep or shut off my mind.
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thread:804589
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