Posted by girlnterrupted78 on April 1, 2007, at 14:03:31
In reply to Re: What are these symptoms? » girlnterrupted78, posted by Quintal on April 1, 2007, at 12:08:40
My mood is never good. It's sort of a permanent, rooted problem that hasn't changed in the last 20 years (I'm 29 now.) I began feeling this way when I was around 3-4 years old. I don't remember my life at that point, but I know that my father was extremely abusive, he'd hit me and he'd insult me in horrible ways. I think he probably is to blame for this. I also didn't get along well with my stepmother and I remember feeling guilty all the time.
5 years ago I tried an antidepressant for the first time--Celexa. Strangely enough, it sort of "cured" those feelings of total unease and it made me want to meet people and I actually dated more guys during that 1 year period than I had in my whole life.
After a year of having zero depression while on Celexa, my doctor switched me to Lexapro, because it was supposedly a new, better version of Celexa. But once I started Lexapro, all my symptoms returned and I felt uneasy and annoyed all over again. I went back to Celexa but it never did the same thing and never worked again like the first time.
I tried a bunch of different meds after that, Effexor, Zoloft, Paxil, and nothing worked. I don't think my life is worth living with this problem. Nothing works anymore, and therapy is very hard because this problem began too early and has been with me for more than 25 years.
> Hmmm, well you just described pretty much all of my own problems in there. I don't know what it is, and I don't think any one category would explain everything satisfactorily. Social Anxiety Disorder with co-morbid depression is an obvious choice. Asperger's Syndrome could be another (though unlikely). Do you feel more at ease in social situations when your mood is good? Which medications have you tried and with what results?