Posted by corafree on January 27, 2007, at 5:35:57
In reply to Re: CHOOSE ANXIETY, DEPRESSION, OR BOTH? » corafree, posted by Phillipa on January 25, 2007, at 22:14:54
I do 'fear' Bb.
I fear losing love and being alone. I get scared. Then my heart starts to race and pretty soon I'm feeling anxiety.
I've been so abused by men. It has usually been at my choice that I be alone, afterall who wants to be abused. But then comes the fear of being alone. Sometimes it's even drawn bad men back to me for a while.
B4 Dad passed, I could go home to visit and he would sort of 'build me back up'. He saw something in me that was good and I saw that he saw it, and then I felt it, and then I trucked on to my next adventure.
Reason up in mid night is began to think of Dad passing away 3yrs ago 2/4. I loved him so very very much. You see why. We were pretty kindred too; free spirited. My mother and sibs must have felt left out or something, as since he has passing, they've become strangers to me. He would be sad.
My fear of trauma from men (and women) also keeps me from socializing.
I had someone tell me that the reason I was suicidal for many years may have been my fear of losing my father, his eventually passing away. I had/have wondered for the past, now 3yrs, why I suddenly was anti-suicidal. I thought it was a miracle. This person suggested the fear was gone now, as he was gone. I found that very interesting.
Chemicals too. Prob' both.
Tks for heads-up on mag and taurate. Never tried melatonin. Lar recommended both of the aforementioned and I grab a tsp of taurate now and then. It is a wonder worker.
But, CF is not very disciplined with supplements. Not like w/ pills. When it comes to pills, she never forgets!
ps: W/ mag, I try remember to take 1:2 ratio .. magnesium:calcium. Shall I buy some melatonin. I don't want to sleep. Well I want to sleep right now because everyone else in mountain time prob' is, but I thought it was mainly for sleep.
tks, cf
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