Posted by joslynn on September 11, 2006, at 9:13:51
In reply to Re: Most depressed in morning, posted by linkadge on September 1, 2006, at 16:39:10
> Its a horrable feeling, worse than death itself, very hard to describe.
>Oh you don't have to describe it, I know that feeling exactly. That happened to me during my two most severe episdoes of depression. The first episode, I refused to take meds, and it did eventually go away, but I suffered for months.
The second time, several years later, I did agree to try meds, and the first combo was Celexa and Remeron. That did help.
Another thing that somewhat helped me from jumping out of the window next to my bed was getting out of bed immediately, throwing on clothes, and taking a walk in town. I would still be walking around with tears in my eyes but at least I saw people walking dogs, garbage trucks making their rounds, workers going to their jobs, just the general buzzing of life and it made me feel a teeny bit better. The hardest part was when I woke up so early it was still dark, and I was afraid to take walks in the dark alone. (Which is ironic, because I wanted to die, but there was still some sense of self-preservation.) That's when it's good to have friends in other time zones, who are awake at that time! Or call a 24-hour mental health crisis hotline.
For me, the absolute worst thing was to stay in bed. Bed became a truly terrifying coffin-like place when I felt that way.
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