Posted by johnnyj on August 3, 2006, at 16:46:26
In reply to Re: » johnnyj, posted by Glydin on August 2, 2006, at 11:52:59
Thank you for your response, you sound well and that is great! Would you be kind enough to let me know what your treatment has been like? What meds? I believe I need something so I can focus on CBT. Now, it is almost impossible.
I had a ok day yesterday but could not sleep last night even after lunesta. I just ruminated and felt I am losing it. I only drifted off after giving in and saying "there is nothing I can do".
Today was up and down. I dwell too much on this illness when all I want to do is forget it and move on. I feel I am just a good nights sleep away from feeling better. The trick is I was on remeron for 3 years and it made me a different person, angry, combatative, and I lived in a fantasy world often. It made me worse and I didn't know who I was. Now, I am not sleeping but at least I am living in the world now. THAT is what I fear from an ssri. Will I become a differnt person? Will I drive people away? I think maybe being ill is better than that? Will I get so spacey again. I was a jerk on remeron and that is not who I really am. So, this makes it hard to decide what to do.
regards,
johnnyj
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