Posted by Enigma on May 14, 2006, at 13:47:32
In reply to Re: EMSAM - 3 weeks - 6mg/24h dose -not working fo, posted by Paul on Long Island on May 14, 2006, at 9:57:36
Thanks for the post Paul.
If this drug is working against me, it definately wouldn't be the first.
Both Cymbalta and Celexa instilled suicidal reactions from me. One got me a weekend stay at a mental facility. Celexa caused me to break down cying at a bar no less, in front of people I just met. That was a bad scene.
I'm so glad you have a drug that actually works for you. That sucks about the weight gain. Prozac gave me horrible anxiety attacks. I felt like I was losing my mind during these attacks. Klonopin and such couldn't combat this enough, so I had to stop. Anyway, I've been lucky in that I rarely the weight gain side-effect from medications. Unfortunately, I get *all* the other side-effects.
I've been in hell for the past few days (at least). The depression is so bad that I can't stop thinking about suicide and can't stand being concious. It takes every ounce of willpower I have left to stop myself. If it wasn't for what this would do to wife and kids, I'd be cremated already. I really wish I was kidding.
I hurt myself last night and I can't really explain why. I was considering checking myself into the hospital last night as I'm slowing losing control of my actions. I can't really continue to exist while feeling the way I do. It's just to painful to tolerate.
Anyway, I doubled up my Emsam patch today, so I guess I'm technically at the highest dose (they make). I have enough patches to do this for 8 days. Before that, I hope to get more Emsam, unless of course I go completely downhill (even though there's not much hill left to go down), then I'll quit the Emsam all together.... adding it to my large list of failed medications. I'm trying this (the med increase) because I'm basically desperate, and have no other alternative. Not sure if there are any more med I haven't tried yet.
I'm glad some people here know my pain. Friends and family are useless, even though *some* try and help. They just don't/can't understand.
Thanks for caring.
-E
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