Posted by MARTY on April 24, 2006, at 14:41:16
In reply to Re: Agressivity on 5mg of PARNATE, uh help? » Marty, posted by Crazy Horse on April 24, 2006, at 13:06:51
Hi CH> Marty, Marty, Marty, What am i going do with you?? 5mgs. made you aggressive?? You are a sensitive young man, eh? Are you normally super sensitive to medications?
What are you going to do with me ? I don't know Horse, if I give you my carrot would you give me a ride ? LOLLL uh.. kidding?
In fact I ALWAYS have been SUPER EXTRA MEGA GIGA sensitive on medications. Always had rare or even unheard of side effects. But well, because I do anxiety not many doc believe in some of those effect. It's even a running gag between my Pdoc and me.. I can come back to her office with some strong/rare/unheard of side effects even on the smallest dose. Example is my facial "electric/fire wave of pain" caused by Risperdal - 0.5mg!
> Just a thought...please don't get pissed :) Perhaps you are imagining, or over analyzing things. Maybe you were just having a bad morning...and it had nothing to do with the Parnate?? You have been under A LOT of stress lately..you are intitled to a bad mood you know. I could be wrong..but i really doubt your first dose of only 5mgs is going to do much of anything.
Bad day, nah.. the feeling was very strong and uncommon. I could have run myself into trouble just to have some faces to punch, and believe me.. I, like most people, hate violence. I'm a pacifist and I always believe in respect, communication and empathy. I feeled like a warrior who had to find something to fight. I was irritable without end.
> Marty, I just don't want you to "Psych yourself" out of a good trial on Parnate. Because if it does work for you, it could change your whole life! You know i'm only trying to help, okay? And if Parnate isn't the right med for you i am still going to be your friend and support and help you in any way i can. :)
I doubt we could stay friends after a Parnate failure: you will be jealous of Annie and me of your Parnate. It could never works ;)= ahahI will continue Parnate as long as I can. Yerterday after the biggest fight ever with my girlfriend, I asked her if she wanted me to continue or stop.. because she has been/could be the one to suffer the most from my destructive mood. And she told me I had to continue whatever happens. She's with me. As long as it's the case I'll continue my quest for Parnate.
> Another thought, maybe it's still withdrawal from Nardil. Your brain is going through a lot of chemical changes, going off Nardil, on Parnate for a few Days, off Parnate, Now back on Parnate....plus you didn't sleep for awhile, see what i'm saying Marty??...it could be a combination of all of the above. Hang in there Bud, try to relax..take some Klonopin :)
You're right, lots of change in the dynamic of my brain lately. It AT LEAST contribute to all this for sure.I may be very sensible at some dopamine receptors in some part of my brain:
- Think Wellbutrin made me like that at a lower level.
- Nardil, less dopaminergic, render me much more agressive than usually. All my familly agree on that.
- Risperdal, dopamine antagonist, even in very small dose give me big effect, side effects, one not even in case report.
-Social Phobic are believe to have some anormalities at the dopamine level; and they tend to respond badly to dopaminergic agent (anxiety)
-Social Phobic has 5x chances of having parkinson
-I'm walking very funny but when I drop my Acetylcholine to favor dopamine I start to walk very normally, can't even fake the way I walk usually LOL (yeah, yeah I know it all in my head)Sorry, not overanalyzing, just having fun :)
Btw, I WAS ON KLONOPIN yesterday. I don't want to take too much of it, it's depressing me relatively quickly. I'll ask my Pdoc for another benzo (Xanax would be good, but she don't like it).
> Oh yea, the crying part...simple, you are becoming a woman!!! (just kidding of course). :) Again, you've been through a lot, and your brain has been through a lot of changes in the last 2 weeks. Hang tough my friend, and seriously take some Klonopin.I was definitively crying often on Wellbutrin, memories coming back about it.
I'll talk about benzos with my Pdoc but will also as her if my reaction, my unstable and extremist (tears <-> rage) mood could be relate to my Bipolarity.. if yes, maybe it could be time to tweak a little more my "flatners" stabilizers ..
>Monte
Great name :) (I feel the need to comment everything, sorry)Thanks for your help Monte.. hope you know all the difference it does for me.. and others you help.
Marty
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