Posted by john berk on April 15, 2006, at 22:22:57
In reply to Unfortunately, I am a Lifer...., posted by Crazy Horse on April 15, 2006, at 9:29:05
Hi Crazy Horse,
My struggle almost parallels yours,
i was first diagnosed with ocd and depression at 16,
was hospitalized at that point for a month, no one seemed to know what to do with me, my anxiety was through the roof, i couldn't eat more than a small meal a day, [lost 14 lbs. in 1 month in the hospital] and was released with just valium to tide me over.i drank to self-medicate for many years, until i went through a very hard withdrawal at 25, i too was put on tofranil, stayed sober 1.5 years, and got alot better, but the ocd never subsided, just went from one obsession to a new one.
i thought for all intents and purposes i would eventually drink myself to death, because i could not face reality with the ocd obsessions and rituals, i too lost the girl i wanted to marry at 20, then went through many relationships not really caring if they worked out, i didn't want to burden a girl with my problems, i still feel that way most times.
it is funny, i don't have children, but i pray everyday that my beloved neice Emily never has to know anything of mental illness, if God blesses me with one thing, that is all i ask.i feel well today, i have to take it one day at a time, because i feel i am a lifer too, i just hope things stay close to the way they are now.
just being sober and coping, and enjoying my family is all i ask!!!
btw, i got your babblemail, thank you, i hope you got my return letter. God bless you and your family, Happy Easter...john
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