Posted by damian on January 24, 2006, at 9:53:41
In reply to Re: AM I GOING CRAZY, posted by wanttobhappy on January 24, 2006, at 9:30:10
> glad to hear your feeling a little better. i have in the past had very negative thoughts and will wholeheartedly admit my son was the only thing that kept me from hurting myself. this round (of depression) i have'nt had those feelings i don't know if i got help sooner or what. check with your local mental health group, sometimes you can get free or cheap therapy through them. i know the money thing can relly make things hard but is'nt your health worth the struggle? if your kids needed meds for diabetes or therapy you would find a way. sometimes i find because its not physical(wich the symptoms really are, most bystanders just dont see it that way) we (mothers/parents) put ourselves on the backburner to simmer and wait. even if you can see someone once a month it's better than nothing. if you are having negative thoughts you should see your doc or go to the hospital asap. when it comes to that you don't have to be strong and try to wait it out!!! it has nothing to do with strength and and you life is WORTH getting help.
> hope i was helpful,
> all my bestI KNOW YOU PROBABLY RIGHT ABOUT PUTTING MYSELF ON THE BACKBURNER BUT THATS JUST THE WAY I AM, THINK MORE ABOUT THE KIDS THAN MYSELF BUT THERAPY DOES COST MONEY AND I AM SO FAR BEHIND IN BILL RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I MISS TOO MUCH WORK THAT I CANT EVEN GET A LOAN TO HELP ME OUT BECAUSE OF CREDIT RATING. I REALLY CANT AFFORD TO PAY FOR HELP. AND AS FAR AS GOING TO THE HOSPITAL I AM AFRAID TO BECAUSE I JUST WOULDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY AT THE TRIAGE, AND HOW LONG WILL I WAIT IN THE EMERGE...I WILL PROBOBLY LEAVE SAYING FORGET IT I CANT WAIT ANYMORE. I KNOW YOUR TRYING TO HELP BUT REALLY I DO FEEL HELPLESS IN ALL OF THIS AND I CANT SEEM TO FIND A WAY OUT.....BELIEVE ME I REALLY WISH I COULD SO I COULD BE A BETTER MOM TO MY FAMILY. I AM SURE ITS TAKING ITS TOLE ON THEM TOO. MY SON NEEDS SO MUCH ATTENTION AND IF I WERE TO BE KEPT IN THE HOSPITAL I WOULD GO NUTS WORRYING ABOUT HIM, AND MY DAUGHTER IS ALSO A MOMMIES GIRL SO SHE WILL CRY EVERYNIGHT UNTIL I AM BACK........I JUST DONT KNOW ANYMORE, I FEEL STUCK WITH NO WAY OUT.
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