Posted by shasling on January 21, 2006, at 12:52:06
In reply to Re: Hospital hell, posted by Maxime on January 21, 2006, at 12:25:36
Maxime, I am so like you. Life in general just gets exponentially harder when normal things like eating lunch with a group of people (which others do without batting an eye, and even enjoy) is so threatening. But, the reasons you stated, I totally understand and would have them myself.
I was in the hospital once and they were going to take us down the street to get an ice cream. I SO wanted no part of that, but they forced me. Here we are all traipsing down this busy street behind the attendant, obviously mental patients, and took over the ice cream shop. I felt like that Cuckoo's Nest group when they escaped and went fishing. It was so humiliating. And complicated by the fact that all I wanted to do was 1) sit in my room and die, or 2) be quietly hugged by someone safe. But the other people, they had a blast. Go figure... Same kind of thing with OT, and all the other time-wasting junk they make you do; I never got it, and it just hurt to be doing something so vapid when I was in such pain. So anyway, I think I understand what you're feeling.
The other thing is it's so hard to be patient while you are doing the suffering and the docs are running you through their favorite med paradigm. Please try to hang in there with that.
I'm sorry for your circumstance. It won't last forever. I'm glad you are here; at least you aren't alone.
Suzie
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