Posted by Maxime on January 21, 2006, at 12:25:36
In reply to Hospital hell, posted by Maxime on January 14, 2006, at 10:44:58
Another weekend pass. More time at a cyber cafe. $$$$$
Still no change. They will be increasing the Prozac to 60 mg next week.
I started an outpatient programme on Friday (even though I am still inpatient). It's a 10 week programme. I don't think I will be staying with it. It's too much to handle while I am still so depressed. I was the only one not smiling in the group. It's very intensive group therapy and things like OT etc. Part of it might be useful, but some of it scares me .... like the days we have to cook! ACK! Plus we have to eat our lunch together and it will be very uncomfortable for me since I don't eat lunch. I don't know. I have a week to try it out, but I don't think I will make it. Yesterday I started to cry before the group started.
I'm still really hopeless, suicidal and depressed.
Maybe they should have restarted the the Parnate instead of trying the Prozac.
A week after I was in the hospital I saw an expert in meds and affective mood disorders. He laid out a plan of meds for me to add on after the Prozac. Adderall is not one of the meds.:-(
I think Seroquel is next,but I lactate on it even though my doctor says it's impossible (my doctor I am assigned to in the hospital).I can't take too much more of this. If I were getting better, then I could say this horror is worth it. I really need to get out soon.
I hope to have internet access at home soon.
Maxime
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