Posted by TommyIsland on January 13, 2006, at 5:55:28
In reply to Re: Scared of stuffing up., posted by summerflowers on January 13, 2006, at 4:47:46
> Well my friend,I really am sick of it.Everything you said is exactly it.So much mental energy is wasted all throughout each day,I wake up each morning in a state of shock.I used to imagine reaching death or old age and finally realizing,how much of my life id wasted on this b*llshit,on trying to please everyone else,trying to conform and fit it,to analize everything down to absolute perfection,and like you said,that is so it,even if something really good happens I find something negative,then it becomes all twisted and bad.Its like iv lost myself somewhere along the way.Who am I?...........Take care,let me know if you find any answers,and I will you.
Well this problem has progressed in my life. It first came into my life when I was 15 and crashed hard into depression and anxiety and I was obsessed with the meaning of life. Then over a period of about 10 years it was manageable. I still had my very deep down depressions with out of this world obsessive thoughts but I was able to maintain some pretty good quality of life, some great memories, and a very active social life. Then somewhere about 3 years ago it started to creep back in and it completely has gotten so out of control over the past year or so of my life that I literally don't know where a year of my life has went. Also like you said it's like you lost yourself along the way. That's exactly the way I feel.....who am I and what is real anyway if things can change just by thoughts that come into your mind. If you come up with any suggestions let me know and I'll do the same.
Take care,
Tommy!!!!!!!
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