Posted by barbaracat on September 25, 2005, at 13:35:11
Well, it's med merry-go-round again. My symptoms have gone from classic bipolar mixed states to classic lethargic sleep all day blahs. They cycle like this every few years. My pdoc talked me into trying the one med I haven't tried and have been very wary of - amphetamine, i.e., Adderall. First things first, any suggestions on how to not develop escalating tolerance?
I can see how I fit an ADD profile and have suspected such for some time now but it's always been confusing as to whether it's really ADD, or the scattering results of bipolar, stress, depression. It's difficult to stay focused when feeling like crap. Or I have all of the above including ADD. I do know that when I was 18-21 I thrived on recreational speed. My drug of choice where just enough calmed me like nothing else. But of course, what feels good can always feel better and I overdid it to the point of blowing my circuits out and developed raving meth toxicity. So I'm really afraid of the stuff.
I think I've developed some wisdom with age and would definitely not abuse it and it just may help me. I don't want to try Wellbutrin yet one more time. It makes me feel awful. I didn't like Concerta one bit and Ritalin had a bad let down. Amphetamines in the right dose did it for me before and might be the ticket. I'm willing to try. It's just that I've got a pretty tweaky nervous system and the idea of a pstim feels like throwing fire on gasoline.
So, any one who'se been there? Helped by Adderall, glad you did it and didn't need to keep increasing to the point of addiction? - Barbara
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