Posted by Sarah28 on June 16, 2005, at 6:52:36
Hello everyone, I NEED HELP BADLY!
Please don’t get discouraged by how long this is. I really need HELP! Have been seeing my doc for about 2 months now, and I basically pay my doc to give me pills. I went to him for severe depression and someone to talk to, but he listened to my story in the first visit for about 10 minutes and then wrote me some scripts and gave me samples. The he wrote out scripts for Xanax 1mg (#120 - 6 a day), Seroquel 100mg (#40 - 1 at night) Adderall (30mg - 4 a day) and Effexor XR 75mg (#70-2 a day).
I took the Effexor for about a week until I started reading about so many people having problems with them, and having bad withdrawals, so I just stopped immediately. The first night I took the Seroquel it was unreal how it made me feel. It was like being on LSD but no fun at all! I was having hallucinations, I lost all motor function capability and I couldn't see straight. I thought I was having a sever allergic reaction and tried to get my phone for help but I actually could hold my phone, it kept falling out of my hands and then I passed out on the floor in the bathroom.
When I went back to him I said I needed something else for sleep because the Seroquel was too much and I was afraid of the Effexor XR because of what I had read. So he gave me a sample bottle of Paxil 20mg (#30 -1 a day) and samples of Lexapro 10mg (#46 - 2 a day) and Temazepam 30mg (#60 - 2-4 at night), and then he still wanted me to have Seroquel so he gave me samples of the 25mg. I took the 25mg Seroquel and still had the hallucinations and could walk or see straight. The hallucinations were mostly thinking that there were ants swarming all over the ground and my nightside table. The Tempazepam is okay, but I have to take so many of them to knock me out. For example, one night I actually ended up taking a total of 15 Temazepams (not all together) but I was desperate for sleep because I had been up for 6 days at that time, and I still didn’t get tired!
I am so scared of being this heavily medicated because I am trying to finish up my last year of college and I can't have anything mess me up. What should I do? Doctors are supposed to know what they are doing, right? Has anyone had these same effects from Seroquel? Also, the Adderall keeps me up for days at a time, usually anywhere from 2-7 days, with seven being the longest. Most of the time is about 4 days until my body just gives out without warning. Doesn't matter where I am, and it happens with no warning, I will wake up in the chair at the computer, or on the floor in the bathroom or kitchen, just from severe lack of sleep.
Has anyone had these same experiences with Adderall? By the way, I do not have ADD, he just gave it to me for energy. Now, for some reason all of the sudden both of my feet have swollen to more that half what they normally look like and I can feel a lot of fluid underneath the swelling. Is this a complication of one of these drugs? My father mentioned something about liver failure and it scared me to death.
The upside to all of this is that the Adderall is making me read incessantly. I am reading about 2-3 books a night. It has also, thankfully helped me write extremely in depth and LONG papers for my classes in school, even though I don't have ADD. The only other thing that I have to mention, which has become a problem, is that I have completely isolated myself to my apartment. I don't want to go anywhere unless I absolutely have to. I don’t even want to go on my front porch!
I just sit at the computer and write, or look things up on the internet to learn more about the things I am reading, because it its most all philosophy "type" books, so I like to explore other philosophers by looking them up. I suddenly have this extreme quest for knowledge, and I can easily stay up for days at a time just reading, only stopping to use the bathroom or take a shower. I don't eat but maybe when I force myself every 3 or 4 days, and that usually consists of a piece of bread. I have lost 40 pounds in two months.
Oh, one last thing, I cannot bear to watch television, whereas before I was put on Adderall, T.V. was what ALL I did with free time. I don't know why I can concentrate so well with reading, but not be able to have television occupy me for even 2 minutes. I just am in a great need of advice right now. What should I do? Has anyone had similar experiences with these same meds? Sometimes I feel like I am going crazy, but I can't tell if it is that or just a period of my life when I am becoming enlightened (I am reading Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu right now).
Maybe I just needed to do some in depth reading and soul searching and this is the way that coincidences have allowed me to read continuously. If you can tell, I am writing just like I would be talking...incessantly! Sorry about the long message! But please, if someone could take the time to respond to any of this it would be helpful.
I need anyone’s advice and I need it soon because my feet look are getting worse and starting to feel numb. I will be checking constantly for responses to this post, because all I do is sit here at this computer anyway. By the way, I am now on my 4th day of no sleep. What do I do about all of this? Could I be having liver failure? ANY ADVICE! HELP ME PLEASE! PLEASE SOMEONE RESPOND!
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