Posted by barbaracat on January 1, 2005, at 19:02:08
In reply to Re: Light box - Vitamin D? » barbaracat, posted by katia on January 1, 2005, at 4:37:46
That's very sweet of you to say that. I've been told I'm too hard on myself by many others, but somehow, coming from you it's very special and allows me to hear it. I'd tend to take something like that more seriously from someone who's had her wok puked in.
Alot of it is also how physically crummy and depressed I feel the next day, and when I'm depressed I tend to lost perspective and beat myself up (sure, that's just what I need, kick her when she's down). Anyhow, I enjoyed a nice bottle of champers and some toasts of scotch last night with no blank memory holes at all and feel great today. It's those blank parts in the evening that worry me cause I usually end up doing something assinine - my bipolar juvanile delinquent usually shows up.
No way I'm going to give up liquor. As long as I can drink in moderation to keep my memories of the evening, and get enough sleep and water, I'll be toasting on over to the Other Side - with Rock and Merlin of course (wonder what they'd imbibe?). Talk to you later on in this New Year. Love, B.
> Good to hear from you my friend Barbara!
> And a VERY happy new year to you, love.
> I'm glad you feel resolved in working things out for the new year and calling Theresa...I think you should anyway.
> Hey, you know one thing I noticed right away with you "the next morning"? YOu carry so much guilt. And the morning after is your way of cleansing and getting clear I saw. You were pledging sobriety before the coffee was served! I admire your resolve, but I also want to say, don't be so damn hard on yourself! You're tying yourself in knots! I think this is where a life coach can really support you. Whether you quit or not, but just getting a grip on the perspective you're choosing. I wholly heartedly encourage you to contact her Madame Barabara!
> Happy Happy New year to you, you lovely soul.