Posted by bridgey1128 on November 15, 2004, at 13:21:09
In reply to Re: Topamax and depression, posted by stresser on November 15, 2004, at 10:21:14
Is she really depressed? Or just sad and having a bad day. I think we toss around the term "depression" too lightly. Kids are saying they are depressed when they are just having a bad day or something isn't going well. She could be having a depression episode or just sad that Topomax isn't working the way she wants it to. When kids don't talk to us it makes it really hard to know what's what. :( Very frustrating. I really don't think that Topomax CAUSES depression per se in most people. It just doesn't do that well in preventing depression episodes. Since I know what my triggers are for my depressions I just try and steer clear of them and I have found Topomax to be very effective in controlling my hypomania. It hasn't CAUSED my depressions. It just hasn't HELPED them. I think that triggers cause them and people blame the Topomax and then again it might actually cause depression in some people. The side effects vary so much in this drug who can say. It would be hard to say that the Topomax actually caused it though because it depends on that certain individual's past cycles and behaviors etc. I really do think that more so than actually causing depression, it just doesn't control the triggers or the depression that the person is already prone to so it appears to cause it. I have had mighty deep depressions while on Topomax but it hasn't caused them. Sorting through them, I know exactly what caused them, and now that I know what and when, I can better avoid those certain triggers and be more depression free. I guess I am blessed though to know more of what causes my depressions than most people. Psydocs are useless to me because I tell them what they want to hear. I know what I have to do or know what needs to be done, but sometimes you can't do it. That, and it irritates the crap out of me to be analyzed like a bug. When I went to be diagnosed officially as bipolar the psych I saw asked me all the normal questions but when I speak I tend to look around. It has nothing to do with being dishonest, or distracted. I am just an observant person and like to know what is going on in my surroundings. I guess that is paranoia too. He had the most annoying habit of ducking his head into my line of vision, like LOOK AT ME! LOOK AT ME! He couldn't stand the fact that I wasn't looking at him. I was like SHEESH MAN!! I was speaking to him. I wasn't wandering or anything. And when I did look at him, I was looking him straight in the eye. I do that because when I am looking at someone's face I have a hard time visualizing what I am talking about. If I am describing something, I need to look away so I can imagine it. If I am looking at a face, I am reading it, so it becomes distracting to me. I look to the left and right of people, depending on the bigger space for me to visualize what I am speaking about. They say, if you look right you are remembering, you look left you are creating, fabricating, lying. Not with me. Sometimes I even have to close my eyes because I need a whole empty canvas. I enjoy telling stories. Not false ones, I just mean retelling things that have happened. FUnny ones, sad ones, happy ones. Especially the funny ones because I love to make people laugh. Those are the ones I love to act out. Anyway, off to get my son from school...
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