Posted by thug life on September 30, 2004, at 23:21:50
In reply to Re: Amphetamine Psychosis: utopizen, posted by utopizen on September 30, 2004, at 13:21:06
> well, I'm not sure if it was amphetamine psychosis, but because my ADD is so bad that when I meet with doctors I often look off suddenly to the distance, they suspect I am hearing "voices." I've never heard "voices" in my life.>Now,look at these words.It shows you that Doctors are gods.If you werent hearing voices but they said you were...how would anyone react? You would be furious because you dont hear voices yet they keep saying you do.So...you get a little angry next thing you know you are labeled with"out of control" blah,blah,blah tendencies.Trust me....Doctors by far do not care about you.Once you are out of sight you are out of mind.Look at how they live,make tons of money,they are prescription writers,follow a nonsense pdr,DSM whatever its up to now,there is a lot of corruption and wrong doings...trust me.Look at the whole picture and you'll see the truth.Start with the Zypexa cup on his desk then go to the NIMH...there are a lot more things,institutes but start thinking there.Ativan was used as a possible weapon in war,the CIA funded the grateful dead and was given LSD to see the effects and if could be used in war.Check into it,you will see how much the government brainwashes us.
> what did happen was me being upset with my doc because I wanted an antipsychotic for my social anxiety on top of my klonopin and he wouldn't give me on, so I was so irritable I slammed the door. It was a doc located at an outpatient wing of the hospital, so I decided to check myself into the in-patient clinic because I was shocked I did such a thing.<Why would you want an anti-psy for social anxiety?
They cause dysphoria and will leave you sleeping all the time.I was on Seroquel,Zyprexa and our possibly the worst meds I have ever tried.The last thing someone with social anxiety is a dopamine blocker.Studies show in rats show increasing dopamine they become the leaders,doers,and are most competent in their group.
> But I did talk excessively at the time, and um, I don't know. Whatever it was, it was a negative reaction to the stimulants, which my psychiatrist at the hospital wrote down on my release paper. He just entertained the idea of amphetamine psychosis to me, but I refuted it with saying "amphetamine psychosis is clinically indistinguishable from schitzophrenia."<Was it the amp or a manic episode?
> But a negative reaction to a stimulant is worthy of seeking help, in any case. I'm not psychotic on the stuff, it's just that it antagonized existing life cicrumstances (school, incompletes) that made me feel hopeless and depressed and anxious. I've cleared things up, and am recovering steadily from my depression, and in a couple of weeks will be going on Klonopin again.<You want to go on a benzo? Try stopping Klonopin in 6 months cold turkey,see what happens.There our tons of debates on its abuse and addiction.It also can leave you depressed and numb.Valium,Xanax,Klonopin all leave you addicted.How would your friends feel when klonopin wears off and you are freaking out because of overwhelming anxiety? Just as you said in the other post about stimulants.There are tons of horror stories of benzos.
> To geno: I strongly advise talking with your doc about Klonopin. It's great to combine with stimulants to control your worries and helps you out while you're trying to find more relief from an antidepressant.<
> A lot of us, obviously, are obsessive over our mental illnesses. Klonopin helps us tremendously with letting us cope with things, and not trying to feveriously research on hopes that we'll find a "cure." No cure awaits you, but relief is possible.<
Do you see how Klonopin can be addicting? You are relying on it to feel better.
Drugs of abuse...
1)take them to feel good(how many people resort to 1 or 2 xanax or klonopin under a little stess)
2)you crave the drug(try stopping a benzo cold turkey)
3)there is a large and ready market(there are millions of websites offering benzos)drugs of non-abuse...
1)feel nothing(give someone adderall,they wont be feeling high and trying to escape reality)
2)forget to take the medication(this happens all the time,ask any high school kid)
3)no demand on the street(ask a drug dealer if they have any dex or adderall)What is wrong with finding a cure? Why put limits on mental abilities? Why not research? Knowledge is power.How do Doctors become doctors? Research!!! You have to know as much as you can.Stand 4 nothing and your bound to fall 4 anything.Trust me on this one....Fear is stronger than love.No matter how much you say you love something when put to the test and your inner most insecurites are brought about,you will act out of fear.Look at 911...all the love for our country meant nothing to the people on the planes.The fear on getting stabbed by a box cutter won.We need to start loving ourselves and trusting ourselves and not being afraid to learn and even become smarter that these doctors.The only problem with research is listening to opinions and not seeing the facts.
In my opinion,Utopizen you are a nice person.But don't be afraid to think you can get rid of any disorder because a doctor said so.Dont be afraid to get rid of your problems.I know a lot of people hear they have a disorder and become it,then live with it...then they fall back on that crutch for acting a certain way,they always have a reason for their actions.Im not saying this is you but im being real.Alot of people out there fear change,they become content.People don't like the truth,they want to be told what to think,they dont want to look in the mirror.Based upon what I know...I wouldve said you were leaning to bi-polar or borderline personality.Look how you changed all my words around in my first post? Look how easy you were to say I didnt care and was trying to make you look bad.Having school problems,irritability,being defensive,not seeing the middle ground,possible psychotic episodes? I am not being mean.I am not trying to put you down.I am just wondering if you have had the right treatment.Have you checked into borderline personality? I do know about your disorder,it is a development disorder(PDD)But I don't know enough about you to see that.I am going by your responses to my posts.I know you probably cant see it but I like you.Why? I feel your passion.I know as a kid,through your fighting and hurting you probably ran in your room crying thinking you were a burden and no one was there with their arms open wide saying everythings going to be alright...with unconditional love.I could be wrong but I'm here for anyone regardless.Btw you wrote my name"thug life" and no one elses.This is what it meansTHE
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EVERBODYMeaning to avoid all these problems we need to start treating our youth better.Alot of problems come from your family and environment.In the end it F**ks everybody because look how much suffering is in this world mentally that couldve been avoided if your childhood was different...think about it.
I mentioned a rose from the concrete.Thats what we all are.Check this out....
Did You Hear about the rose that grew from the crack in the concrete.
Proving nature's laws wrong it learned to walk without having feet
Funny it seems but by keeping its dreams
it learned to breathe fresh air
Long live that rose that grew from the concrete
when no one else caredI'll switch it up...
Did you Hear about Utopizen that had a mental illness?
Proving everybody wrong,Utopizen learned to survive without knowing the ways
Funny it seems but by keeping the hopes and dreams alive
Utopizen learned to feel good again and stay positive and survive
Long live Utopizen who overcame the odds
When no one else caredThis questions what is beautiful.In a rosebush taking care of,people will stop,smell it,adore it...think its beautiful.But if they saw a rose growing from the concrete a little dirty,a petal missing they wouldn't give it a second look.It's tainted and dirty.But when you look further you see a miracle that people will walk right over.
1)They dont see how something as beautiful as a rose grew from such a non giving place(concrete)
2)They dont see the how the rose could actually thrive and survive this long under horrible conditions.
3)And what is beauty...the rose for living under harsh conditions? Or the concrete for being a non giving environment yet it gave the world a beautiful rose? They are both beautiful and miracles just like everyone on this board.No one knows the struggles they only see the troubles not knowing its hard to carry on when no one loves you,they have never witnessed the problems we survived.So enough of me.....now this is a long post lol!!!Geno,
I'll address you later and try and help.Thug Angel
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