Posted by jerrympls on September 28, 2004, at 18:01:34
In reply to Re: A New Hope...., posted by Rayray on September 28, 2004, at 17:47:14
> Hi Jerry,
> I like the new thread name and hope you're starting to clear. Here's a couple of thoughts to consider.
> On the work front, is there a possibility that going to work might provide some form of structure and esteem-building activity to get started? Following a train of thought jujube mentioned, us AA'ers have a slogan about "move a muscle, change a thought." Not necessarily easy to do sometimes, but it's just a thought.
> Also, are there any substance issues in the picture that might be making things worse? It is amazing how drugs and alcohol can wreak havoc. (And you don't necessarily even realize it). This may not apply to your situation at all, but I thought I'd put it on the table.
> You are still very young, Jerry, and you've got a lot shots at life yet.
> All the best,
No substance abuse here. As far as work providing some sort of stability of routine and thought, etc. that was true....and will be when I go back. But, it's also the reason i had to go on leave in the first place. My meds - being as screwed up as they are - weren't allowing me any sleep, I was arriving late, calling in sick too much and literally marking me as "unreliable." I had issues with my boss being passive-aggressive and gossiping about my illness to other managers and I was completely burned out. My SUPERVISOR (cool guy) sat down with me and recommended some leave time (which I was about do ask for anyway). He's been very supportive throughout this.
I guess I'm mostly disappointed that my doctor hasn't done anything aggressive during this time and that I haven't been more assertive with him. I told him - "...now would be a good time to be aggressive since I have all this time off," and he didn't change anything.
So, hopefully tomorrow I can get things figurerd out with my therapist.