Posted by JennCat on September 27, 2004, at 17:56:10
I don't know where to begin. I can remember being @ 8 yrs. old when my mother got her first job out of the house. She thought it was the cutest thing that I wuld stand at my window waving to her as she left for work, before I went to school. What she didn't realize was that I had to stare at her without blinking until her car was totally out of site. If I could do that, then she would be safe for the rest of the day, and make it home alive. My father left for work before she did, and I would stare at the clock before the minute would change. If I could do that, HE would be safe and make it home alive also. I do this in almost every aspect of my life. People will be talking to me, but I will be counting the birds that are flying by, or using my finger to write down on my leg what they are saying, or sometimes I am just singing the same verse of the same song over and over and over in my head.I often picture myself outside myself, say I have a picnic to go to and I know 3 weeks in advance. I picture the whole thing as if it were a movie and I see myself sitting there. I know who is beside me, I know what I am eating, I know where the bathroom is, I know the front door, I find all the ways out...etc Maybe I was at this house before, maybe not. I don't know if they wer places I've been before or not, but I find myself doing this alot. I am afraid to go where I've never gone before. OK that's enough for now, theye's a lot more to tell, but I don't feel likr typing anymore right now.
poster:JennCat
thread:395956
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