Posted by Scott in Vermont on June 1, 2004, at 13:58:01
In reply to Lexapro washout?, posted by Scott in Vermont on May 28, 2004, at 13:52:22
Thank you all for responding. My pdoc hasn't yet returned my call, but I'm doing ok right now so I'll discuss it with him in due time.I still don't know what triggered that emotional blowout. I know that Lexapro is not a "cure all" and that I'm still going to feel things the way "normal" people feel them (such as good days and bad days) and I not only accept that idea, I embrace it because I want to "feel". But what I do not want is having days like Friday, where for no apparent reason I want to curl up in a closet, completely melt down, and blow my head off.
Friday night was hugely difficult because the children were visiting for the weekend and they didn't deserve to see Daddy look like a mess. I toughed it out, and while I did talk to them that I was having a tough time (I don't "hide" this from the kids, I just don't want them to "see" it) they didn't seem to mind or notice anything different. I kept a good exterior. Then Saturday morning I woke up and ... wow... I was my same old self. Nothing was even close to the way it was Friday. The sun was shining, I was back to where I feel "normal"... it was welcomed, but eerie.
I'm rambling now. I wrote this response out earlier and I was much more descriptive. I deleted it by accident, and have obviously lost the magic.
My point is that I'm ok now... but I'm scared that I could crash like that again. I don't know what happened. Like I said before, there was no (apparent) trigger, no cause or change... and that frightens me. No cause means that it could happen again. I saw the slip, and I felt it coming... but it didn't help me stop it.
Again, thanks for the responses.
poster:Scott in Vermont
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