Posted by katia on April 18, 2004, at 15:01:06
In reply to Re: SID p.s., posted by Pfinstegg on April 18, 2004, at 12:17:53
Hi again,
So how were you able to detect his "problem". My mom bought me a white noise machine to drown out TV noises at the age of 12. And beyond that, everyone just thought my behavior and intolerance were neurotic and difficult. No one seemed to question whether something deeper was going on. Noises and wiggling feet drove/drive me mad. But also at the same time (around 11), I remember my first depression - very existential - questioning religion and life, etc. w/ great sadness and fear. My first phobias came up (fear of spiders, losing my hair, and of cancer). I was terrified all the time. Again, no one seemed to think about outside help as a possibility; they just tried to talk w/ me about my fears. But all these things seem to happen w/in a year or two of each other. So I've always hidden these wierd "neurosis" as best as I could b/c they are so embarrassing. It's been hell trying to not let myself be bothered and go to extremes to get away from the input when I've lived w/ boyfriends; while hiding it. They've thought I'm neurotic, uptight, and let little things bother me. I haven't been able to explain it to anyone, even my pdoc! Be/c it's hard to describe. What do you do w/ this wierdness? Now, it seems there is a reason for it. But during my last two years journey into getting a dx finally for bipolar/depression, I assumed these "neuroses" would go away w/ the depression and anxiety. It feels really related; but they haven't. They are exacerbated by the lows or agitations for sure.Any input anyone can give would be greatly appreciated!
Thank you,
Katia
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