Posted by snapper on April 6, 2004, at 1:39:24
In reply to I see nothing in my future -help, posted by MOREL1 on April 4, 2004, at 20:22:47
Hey MOREL1, it's late and I just happened to re-read your original post and You and I have some similarities-- I let go of a Good Girl 14 years ago and I think that by doing so, it caused me to just spiral. It is a bit more complicated story than just breaking up but for now I'll just tell you this. I don't know exactly your circumstances and what not, but I am only 37 and look like I am only 30 or so........ but I do feel much older because of the continual drain that depression anxiety and stress, place on ones entire body. I also suffer from a sleep disorder as well- I have central sleep apnea and I have a device that is specifically designed to help me breathe properly at night but the biggest problem is that because My anxieties and depression are so intense, I do NOT sleep well either. I toss and turn and on my face etc. If I was able to use the CPAP machine at night, I am 100% certain that it would help - maybe not cure but most likely help substantially, my underlying dis-orders--- I know its a hard one to figure out--- which came first the Ill health then sleep problems then dep and anxiety or if they all just coincided!! In respect to you growing old alone-I can totally relate--- I am overweight but I am not ugly by any means... and therefore I feel unappealing as well - If I had the motivation and energy to go to the gym and get in shape to look better and feel better about myself, I would. but right now its just not happenin'-- i do continue to search and look for answers to getting well-I know it seems totally inconcievable right now and that is obviously your ill health talking, which in turn feed the depression and anxiety. All I can say is this, somehow some way you need to find out -which came first. Depression anxiety and ill health or sleep problems or sleep problems anxiety , depression and continued ill health. You are only 24!!! I'd kill to be 24 again. Man I was on top of things and ready to go and do and conquer. But depression and anxiety settled in and have been my compaion ever since. I am not posting back to you to make you feel worse than you already do. I am posting back because I really do beleive that If you can find out what is really wrong then you can work on making it right!! No its not easy and I for sure feel like giving up everyday but I have'nt yet so I hope you don't either. Bottom line is this, if I could have addressed the turmoil and major stresses in my life waaaaaaay back then and effectively dealt with them- I might not be struggling as hard as I am now but hind sight is 20/20 and sometimes "blind"! In any case don't throw in the towell yet. I know I am not !! Hope this helps and very best wishes too you!!
snapper
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