Posted by katia on February 9, 2004, at 14:02:41
In reply to Re: Bunnykins! Mania anyone? » katia, posted by Karen_kay on February 9, 2004, at 12:22:11
Hi,
Yep. that's sounds familiar. Let's see - last night at work I disclosed the fact that I haven't had a bowel movement in three days to the chefs and people I work with in a loud funny way due to the fact that I race out of bed in the past few mornings and look for more houses to buy... fight or flight - digestion is the first thing to shut down. I "mooned" a coworker (flipped my top up). A good mood can instantly turn sour and back again in a matter of minutes if something doesn't go right - esp. at work. I can go from tears to laughter and back again thrice. But all this feels normal for me. I seem to lack appropriate "disclosure" boundaries *sometimes* and wear my heart on my sleeve. Everyone knows everything about me. And then I cringe and feel I need to hide away in shame afterwards when the energy dies down. I'm also skipping therapy appointments - which could be a sign. I can't stand sitting in there for a whole 50min. trying to "process". And therapy is normally my lifeblood. (I'm talking therapy, not seeing my psychiatrist - he just prescribes meds).
And the energy can get ugly - I guess you could call it a mixed state. I think you described it earlier. This whole cycle that you described - how long is it? days? weeks? months? I think I go in and out of highs and lows in general ways that last month(s)- I'm in a high now I think (or is this normal?) and within the general high or low I rapid cycle within it I'm seeing. Like some days are normalish and some days are very activating/energized and some days are irritable and sad; but energized so. So I guess it would be mixed states when I appear to cycle. It's a racy alive pulsating time. It's this whole buying the house thing that is stimulating me. Sensitive types...anything can loop me.
Are you still on Topamax? How old are you? I'm 33.
Katia
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