Posted by bluesfan on January 30, 2004, at 9:41:14
Okay.....I've been on this board for about a month and a half now, and it has been a great resource for understanding the things I've been going through. I was diagnosed with depression back in mid-December, and I started taking 10mg of Lexapro on December 18th. As of right now I no longer feel like I have depression, but I am feeling a great deal of anxiety. About a week before I started Lexapro I couldn't eat, I wanted to sleep all of the time, I couldn't go to work, I didn't care about anything and I thought a lot about death. Now I'm eating normally, sleeping the entire night, I'm productive at work, and I care about the things that we're important to me before. My problem now appears to be anxiety. I truly believe now that this is what caused my initial depression in the first place. I think that I let so many things get to me that I finally hit bottom. My biggest problem now is I keep having this feeling like I'm going to do something bad and I'm going to end up in jail or in a mental institution. I keep trying to figure out why some people murder and steal, and I keep thinking that I might turn out like that. I see myself robbing a bank or hitting my wife or just doing something stupid. I'm far from a violent person and having these thoughts really increase my anxiety even though I have no desire to do them. Is this a common thing with a person that has anxiety? Is Lexapro the right drug for me now that I know I'm suffering from anxiety and not something else? Thanks for letting me vent here on this forum. I just feel like I should be getting better than I am by now. I've never gone through any of this before, so I'm a bit confused on how to handle it. I used to be able to watch movies with violence and things like that, but now I avoid those things at all costs because it really raises my anxiety and I keep thinking to myself that I'm going to turn out like that. Any advice in this are would be greatly appreciated!
poster:bluesfan
thread:307226
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20040127/msgs/307226.html