Posted by 1980Monroe on December 19, 2003, at 17:56:55
Yea i used to take Adderall 30mg for 4 yrs for ADD, and recently stopped comletely. For some reason i got into a habit of taking it at exactly 5:37pm to study and do research and do papers, other collage crap. It definitly was someting with my subcounsiouce - like a alarm reminder to take medicine, it happned everytime on the dot, weird. Anyways, i always relized that adderall got me motivated to stuff i just completly hated like sitting down and researching some old fart that was basically never known, and maybe only in 1 of 200000 sources. It got me all motivated and focused, and i could sit down, without just totally forgetting what i was doing and do something that was stimulting. I got really driven and ambitious too, it seemed to arouse my drive to achieve things in general, and made me calm, or more or a motivated calm. Usally im a nervous wreck having panic attacks becuase i dont know what the heck im going to do next, i need a reality check.
Alright anyways, sorry i went off subject- It was easy getting off, but i noticed about a several weeks later that right around 4:30'ish, i get a arousing feeling its like "ive been activated" and then later i noticed this feeling was similar to what adderall did. Its not the SAME exact feeling, like my body has suddenly starts miriculy making amphetamine, but my motivation and drive and are cranked up, i just sit and plan stuff thats 20 yrs down the road! I feel "full-throttle" in getting things done, like work, collage, achievment, pointless research, and focusing is a breeze. I feel like this until i go to bed, but the next day when i wake up, i feel so spaced out, and im just "bearly hanging on to life", and lazy. Classes are at 10am, i just bearly pass because i miss important info, but i feel like i just dont care. I feel down, adn i have no potential, depressed! Usally after class, go home and just crash, i just have no energy, or really anything. Suddenly, i get this burst of wakefulness, motivation and arousal, and i immidatly start to catch up crap i missed in class, or something that needs to be done. Its like a cycle, in one day, is this bi-polar, or just my mind doing a placebo performance? Really apprieciate advice, thanks
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