Posted by galkeepinon on August 19, 2003, at 19:19:22
In reply to Re: What time to take Lex? » galkeepinon, posted by Arrianna on August 19, 2003, at 12:23:51
Hi Arrianna!:-) I took Lexapro around 11AM today and I felt groggy today too, it's weird. It is really helping with my depression though, and how I'm thinking about things-I just like it so far! I think I've lost about 5 Lbs too whoooooooopeee!!!
Did your day continue to be good I hope? Sometimes people, even friends and family don't understand our illness and it hurts-believe me-I know. Right~~You know what they say, *To thine own self be true*
Regarding running in the genes~~~yeah-I have a very addictive personality like my dad-but never got the alcoholic/gambling part of it, I was very fortunate, but I still struggle with other addictions. I heard someone say a long time ago in a therapy group I went to that she got *jeans* from her mom and *genes* from her dad~~~I thought that was funny-do you know what I mean??? LOL It's like I seemed to inherit my dad's personality and a little of my mom's, but when I was little she bought me clothes aka as *jeans*-she seems a little more 'normal' than my father with the *genes* if you know what I mean?? :-) Let's just say, she's never been in trouble with the law ;)
Yes, I do believe that ANY addiction has a certain effect on the brain-that is the *high* one gets from whatever activity they get 'addicted' to-whether it's cocaine,alcohol, sex, gambling, spending, food,etc.
*Surrender and acceptance*-yep I hear you-sounds very good-I am proud of you!!! Also, if you really wanted it, then you'll work towards it and you did and you are. I have to remind myself of that everyday too (another thing;)LOL)
Right now, my dad and I don't talk (on his choice) too much abuse and manipulation towards me and I couldn't handle it anymore. It hurts, I still cry about-a few weeks ago I cried for about 2 hours really HARD-that will hold me over til next month ot so LOL-of course it hurts, but what can I do, I can't control anyone else butmyself and if he wants to m iss out on his daughter's life-then that's *his* choice.
Anyway, I hope you have a grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreat night and talk to you soon. I'm here for you, and to support you the best that I am able anytime! I'm off and online throughout the week.
((((hug))))) right back to you:-)
Galkeepinon> Hi Gal! Thank You! Thank You! And, Thank You! Your post has been the light of my day so far. Woke up really groggy this morning, and with a headache. Took my lex earlier last night than usual. So, thinking that is why?
> I really do appreciate your support and understanding. At the time I dropped out of school, I think it is what I needed to do. It was the right decision for me then, but still at times I have some regret. My family doesn't help either. They don't understand my illnesses- nor, the importance of taking time to take care of me. It's frustrating with them at times, but I'm the one who has to stay true to me.
> I'm sorry to hear about your dad. Gambling addiction is one of the toughest! I also have an aunt who is a compulsive gambler, and had an uncle who was as well. Then my "ex"step-dad was/is an alcoholic. It truly does run in the genes.
> I don't know if you've heard or not, but many studies have been done, and the effect gambling has on the brain is just like that of cocaine, heroin and alcohol. The only difference is how you take the drug.
> I really don't know how I did it. I'm still amazed that I'm free from gambling today. It ruled and controlled my life to the fullest. I guess with my gambling, I just got really sick and tired of the pain to the point that I didn't even enjoy it anymore. The last time I went, I lost my rent money, and had to force the tears from coming when I was still gambling. I was so miserable. It was then that I finally surrendered to this thing. It took many trys, but I finally realized that I couldn't control it nor would I ever win. So, "surrender" and "acceptance".
> Also, I really wanted recovery. I wanted a better life, I wanted to be a better person- free of addiction. I truly believe that in order for one to be successful with recovery, one has to want recovery more than gambling (or whatever the drug is). But, what really has saved me is GA. Without GA, I don't know where I'd be. The support and fellowship of the group is so crucial.
> Thanks also for your interest in how i did it: I love talking about it- to anyone who will listen. I also need to.
> How's your relationship with your dad? That has to be hard, too. He has to quit when he's ready. Only the addict knows when they're ready to do it. Until then, (most likely and unfortunately), nothing will work. But, there is hope.
> I don't know your situation with your dad or anything, but if you're interested or haven't checked it out already, there is Al-Anon and Gam-Anon. It could be a huge help for you.
> Also, want to give you a BIG THUMBS UP for doing what you're doing!! You're breaking the cycle by not only going to school, but by bettering yourself as a person. It is a tough road, but your rewards will be worth it! It's got to be one of the hardest things to stop the pattern of illness, but you are and can do it! And, your determination to keep trying gives me strength to never give up. "We meet failure on the road to success".
> Thanks again, Gal! It's been great getting to know you better here, and I hope we can continue to support eachother.
> Hugs,
> Arrianna
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