Posted by galkeepinon on July 19, 2003, at 7:18:53
In reply to Re: sleep and effexor--galkeepinon » galkeepinon, posted by NThompson on July 19, 2003, at 2:06:15
Hey there Nyia,
Well, I'm up at 5am, went to sleep early last night-what? on a Friday night lol. I now have had a reaction to the Topamax-itching-bad-another poster mentioned pruritis? So I have to mention that to my psychiatrist next week when I see him. I took Benadry and it tends to make me hyper so I guess thats why Im up. I can't seem to win. Physically, I have been feeling like crap-stomachaches, migraines, etc.-I think I'm just stressed again. I've not been dealing very well lately with some family issues and have been having to make a decision about something regarding college whether to take some time off and get well when I'm so close to finishing. I'm also trying really hard to boost my self-esteem back to where it used to be. I have a few people who just love to push my buttons and I use cigarettes to numb out and they are making me sick as a dog!!! I've only been smoking for 4 years. I'm too smart and too pretty for that!!! (NOT at all meant to sound conceited!!!)
I hear exactly what you are saying here, the weight thing is definately part of my deopression too. When I first started Topamax, I had no appetite, it's slowly coming back. I cry so very hard sometimes and ask the same question as you do-"Where did I go" Most of my friends are married and have kids-1 is working and buying a brand new home with their husbands. I am not a jealous person-I think it's great, it just makes me so depressed, because no matter how hard I try, I can't work, and now I can barely go to college. I just keep on keepinon-hence the nick lol ***As far as the Effexor goes, I basically have quit it. I probably should go back on it. I'm really thinking here that I need an anti-depressant and some damn therapy before things get worse. Thanks for listening:)
Please keep in touch-so glad to hear from you!Gal
> Hey there Gal,
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> Yeah try it a couple of nights. See what happens. I hope you get some rest. Yeah, my workout routines have been slim to nill lately. I have to lose some of this weight though. I think that that might be part of my depression and not being happy with myself. I don't like the way I look, talk or just everything! I look in the mirror and I have absolutely no idea who this person is looking back at me. Where the hell did I go?? I am only 29 years old and look and feel soo much older. Some of my friends are younger, 21-24 years old. They are starting to exclude me now when they go out. I'm not quite sure why, but I am the only one out of them that's married with kids. Maybe they don't want their "mother" around while picking up on guys! I don't quite know if it is the 5-8 year age differance or if it is just them, but I see things totally different than they do. I see the more responsible road and they go down the careless one. I see the reasonable road and they take the irrational one. I don't know.. maybe I am a party pooper!
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> Anyway how have you been doing lately? I hope your meds are doing you some good. Let me know how you are doing, okay!
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> Take care,
> Nyia
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