Posted by Merci on June 10, 2003, at 12:16:11
In reply to Re: I'm still here, posted by denise528 on June 10, 2003, at 11:43:41
Denise,
I had 3 unilateral and 8 bilateral ECT treatments.
It doesn't feel like there has ever been a time in my life when I haven't been somewhat depressed (I guess dysthymic), but every 3 years or so I experience a deep, deep depression that renders me nearly non-functional. I dropped out of college (I did go back and finish), took a leave of absence from my job when I was working, and most recently have taken a leave of absence from law school.
There has always been an anti-depressant that has brought me out of the deep depression, but its effects never last long. I can usually feel myself slipping, and we try different antidepressants. This time, though, I'm stuck. Nothing is making a dent in this horrid, horrid depression. When I left law school on November 1 of last year, I thought for sure that I'd be ready to go back this August. I know there's still time, but I can't imagine that happening.
I don't want to make it seem like going back to school is the only thing that is important to me, because it certainly isn't. First and foremost I want to feel ok. Going back to school is sort of a tangible way of measuring where I am.
My doctor just called and gave me all the information I need to call Mass. General and make an appointment - hopefully, by some miracle, they can get me in soon. I'm going to call right now.
Merci
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