Posted by Merci on June 12, 2003, at 9:24:35
In reply to Re: I'm still here, posted by denise528 on June 11, 2003, at 11:39:34
Denise,
Unfortunately, Zyprexa is one of the last drugs I tried before the ECT; it didn't help. In the 13 years that I've been treated for depression, I've been on 20+ drugs.
Massachusetts General Hospital is a huge research hospital in Boston. At this point I'm not interested in being part of any research group, but I'm hoping to get an appointment with a psychopharmacologist who is affiliated with the hospital. A psychopharmacologist is, by definition, an "expert in choosing and prescribing (psychiatric) medications."
I had such high expectations of the ECT and am absolutely devastated that it didn't work. What if this person can't help me? I'm so scared that I've reached the end - the end of treatment options. Everyone I know, and even those I don't (like on this board) keeps telling me that there is a solution and that I need to believe that. I am trying SO hard to believe that. I've got to stop with the 'what ifs'...
I don't know why today I am so frustrated and so sad - I've had a few moments in the past few days where I've actually felt ok - not good, but ok.
I am so grateful for this board - just knowing that there are others out there who really understand makes such a difference. Thank you Denise, and everyone else who has offered a kind word. I hope that I can do the same for you.
Merci
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