Posted by dddiane on June 6, 2003, at 6:54:08
In reply to Bipolars---would you go nuts if your mood , posted by McPac on June 5, 2003, at 16:37:59
Everyone's bipolar has a different manifestation. I can say for sure if I was deprived of my mood stablizers I would be come angry, irritible, irrational, and possibly violent. If I even lower the doseage, I find myself ready to argue with anyone or anything! In general I pride myself on my long fuse - but once I was trying to cut back on my Tegretol, and I found myself screaming at a woman in a parking lot! I wanted to beat her up! Needless to say, I went back to my regular dose of Tegretol after that outburst. I didn't like to see myself turn into a "fishwife".
This has nothing to do with antidepressant use, since I can't and don't use antidepressants. They seriously wind the key in my back, if you know what I mean.
Who I am without mood stablizers, and I mean specificly AEDs, has been my motivation to stay medication compliate for years. It is just too ugly otherwise.
Also, without AEDs my thinking becomes highly disorganized. It is difficult to read, and sometimes to drive, or even understand what people are saying to me. I just remember how it was before my dx, and before medication. Sometimes my thinking was so very clear and sharp, and other times simple thinking was a challege. My mind was either moving so fast or so slow.
So my answer is yes, I would go nuts!
Diane
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